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I'm fairly sure what happened last night was food poisoning, but admit it simply may have been over-indulgence. Either way I feel very sick today. So I'm not looking at cars or dealing with anyone. I am just waiting for Tim to maybe come take care of me after work, because although I know it may not be a good idea I don't want to be with anyone but him. that's the hardest part for me to deal with. We broke up for a reason but all I think about it being with him.
i guess I can't write all that I wanted to. I'm sick of being depressed and I'm sick of being unsure how to do anything about it other than cry and write here. I'm sick of not knowing what the thing that will set me off that day will be. I'm sick of wondering what I did to bring this kind of bad karma upon myself.
in the end I'm hating myself.
i guess I can't write all that I wanted to. I'm sick of being depressed and I'm sick of being unsure how to do anything about it other than cry and write here. I'm sick of not knowing what the thing that will set me off that day will be. I'm sick of wondering what I did to bring this kind of bad karma upon myself.
in the end I'm hating myself.