All his life
he had an urge when in the passenger seat of a fast moving car, or sometimes in the back seat but only at a window, that he should open the car door and fling himself onto the freeway and try to run to a stop. Of course he'd die, of course, nobody could run to a stop from a 60mph car exit, but he would put his hand on the handle over the door to keep from grasping the door lever, lock the door to lock himself in, pay attention to the radio or the dashboard. The one day he tried it.