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I was going to post something else.. but whatever. You know what kills me? People telling me that I'm a great guy and that good things happen to guys like me and that I should just let loose and have fun. Well you know what? I try to have fun my own way and I try to be happy! I try to make good friends who like me for me and who will be there when I need them. I try to do a lot of things. You think I don't want to have fun? Of course I do! You know what though? The two things that make me the happiest guy in the world are loyal friends and someone who I love and who loves me back.
What really kills me is that whenever I seem to find the right person for me, it doesn't work. I am picky about my friends, and I am even pickier about my girlfriends. I don;t believe in this crap that you should just go out with whoever you think looks good. I'm in it for longer than that. I don't just want a physical relationship, I want something real. That is what girls supposedly look for on top of that, not that that is why I am that way. Does that help me find someone? No. Whenever I have someone I really care about, they are taken away from me. My longest running relationship.. crushed. Do I want sympathy? No. I just don't understand. Why is it then when things are going so well.. something always gives? What is that?! Why does that happen? You'd think that with people at least, it would wind up going back to normal, but no. Since it's me.. it will never go back to normal.
You know why I like relationships so much? Because I like to be close to someone who cares about me and who loves me for me. Not some two timing friend who is only there when they want to be there and who mooches off of you. I don't understand these things, but I wish I could be happy.
What really kills me is that whenever I seem to find the right person for me, it doesn't work. I am picky about my friends, and I am even pickier about my girlfriends. I don;t believe in this crap that you should just go out with whoever you think looks good. I'm in it for longer than that. I don't just want a physical relationship, I want something real. That is what girls supposedly look for on top of that, not that that is why I am that way. Does that help me find someone? No. Whenever I have someone I really care about, they are taken away from me. My longest running relationship.. crushed. Do I want sympathy? No. I just don't understand. Why is it then when things are going so well.. something always gives? What is that?! Why does that happen? You'd think that with people at least, it would wind up going back to normal, but no. Since it's me.. it will never go back to normal.
You know why I like relationships so much? Because I like to be close to someone who cares about me and who loves me for me. Not some two timing friend who is only there when they want to be there and who mooches off of you. I don't understand these things, but I wish I could be happy.