fat
All I do anymore is work and eat. Seriously. I plot out what I'm going to eat on my days off, since all I eat on the days that I work is a granola bar and a salad. Mom and I are going to the del mar fair tomorrow and we've plotted out everything we're going to eat. Let's just say that the list is long. And fattening (deep fried twinkies and chocolate filled churro's anyone?). It has occurred to me that given the correct environment, I could probably hit 140 pounds and not mind. I think maybe I'll move to the English countryside, and hire a chef to cook for me, and just get fat.
SO work is better now that I've gotten into the groove. I like most of my coworkers a lot. Except the older people, Tee and Maja. They scare me. Maja complimented my shoes today and I was so taken aback that she had said something nice it took a good two minutes for me to respond to her. I only have six more weeks of work there, which is weird. I really like a lot of the customers, like these three kids that came in today were so adorable, it made me think that having children is not such a bad idea. Maybe. Don't quote me on that.
A part of what makes it fun is that we all wander around the departments. We are sandwiched between lingerie and kids wear and right across from the rail. Today, one of the guys from the rail came over to talk to me about a shirt I was looking for, for a friend, and we were talking for a little and when he left one of my coworkers exclaims "he likes you!" I was like, what? who? and then another one chipped in with a "he stares at you all the time! and he never flirts with anyone and he was totally flirting with you." I was like, oh... I guess. I felt dumb. I never notice these things. Maybe the fact that he offered to track down a shirt for me and have it transferred from clear across the country and put a rush on it and hurried over to tell me it was here the minute it got in should have been a tip off.
Theres this guy that works in the visual department. He's at least 22, because he's in grad school. Matt. Anyway, I had noticed him looking at me and he always stops to say hey, and today I ran into him when I was clocking out for lunch and he asked where I had been the past week (Vegas), and was chatting me up. I pointed him out to coworker Megan and she thinks he's certified hotness and I should go for it. I reminded her I had a boyfriend. But what's really weird is that I'm not sure I would, even if I was single. Usually I'm miss little go for it... even when I have a boyfriend, sometimes. Just to play with them. But that doesnt interest me anymore. I'm just so focused on work and other things. and I miss casey.
Not talking to him is weird. I don't miss him the same way I've missed other people. Usually it's this sharp pain every once in a while, when something reminds me of them, or when I talk to them. And I've been so sad in the past. I remember, summer after senior year when I went away for two weeks and didn't get to see perez, how sad I was. How all I could think about was getting back home to be with him. Same with last summer. Now its sortof a dull ache, all the time. Like a craving. Almost like I'm hungry for him. That's really what it feels like. A constant, dull hunger. And it's only getting worse now that I haven't talked to him for a week, and won't for another two weeks. Maybe that's why I eat so much, trying to not be hungry anymore. Wrong kindof hunger I guess.
Vegas was awesome. I have the best Little Sis ever. I really want to go back, but I don't think I'll get the chance. I hope she comes out here in August, we could have so much fun together. Only two more months until I'm back at school... I can't believe summer is mostly half way over. Weird. And this could be my last summer home. Even weirder. Maybe I can get to sleep now...
SO work is better now that I've gotten into the groove. I like most of my coworkers a lot. Except the older people, Tee and Maja. They scare me. Maja complimented my shoes today and I was so taken aback that she had said something nice it took a good two minutes for me to respond to her. I only have six more weeks of work there, which is weird. I really like a lot of the customers, like these three kids that came in today were so adorable, it made me think that having children is not such a bad idea. Maybe. Don't quote me on that.
A part of what makes it fun is that we all wander around the departments. We are sandwiched between lingerie and kids wear and right across from the rail. Today, one of the guys from the rail came over to talk to me about a shirt I was looking for, for a friend, and we were talking for a little and when he left one of my coworkers exclaims "he likes you!" I was like, what? who? and then another one chipped in with a "he stares at you all the time! and he never flirts with anyone and he was totally flirting with you." I was like, oh... I guess. I felt dumb. I never notice these things. Maybe the fact that he offered to track down a shirt for me and have it transferred from clear across the country and put a rush on it and hurried over to tell me it was here the minute it got in should have been a tip off.
Theres this guy that works in the visual department. He's at least 22, because he's in grad school. Matt. Anyway, I had noticed him looking at me and he always stops to say hey, and today I ran into him when I was clocking out for lunch and he asked where I had been the past week (Vegas), and was chatting me up. I pointed him out to coworker Megan and she thinks he's certified hotness and I should go for it. I reminded her I had a boyfriend. But what's really weird is that I'm not sure I would, even if I was single. Usually I'm miss little go for it... even when I have a boyfriend, sometimes. Just to play with them. But that doesnt interest me anymore. I'm just so focused on work and other things. and I miss casey.
Not talking to him is weird. I don't miss him the same way I've missed other people. Usually it's this sharp pain every once in a while, when something reminds me of them, or when I talk to them. And I've been so sad in the past. I remember, summer after senior year when I went away for two weeks and didn't get to see perez, how sad I was. How all I could think about was getting back home to be with him. Same with last summer. Now its sortof a dull ache, all the time. Like a craving. Almost like I'm hungry for him. That's really what it feels like. A constant, dull hunger. And it's only getting worse now that I haven't talked to him for a week, and won't for another two weeks. Maybe that's why I eat so much, trying to not be hungry anymore. Wrong kindof hunger I guess.
Vegas was awesome. I have the best Little Sis ever. I really want to go back, but I don't think I'll get the chance. I hope she comes out here in August, we could have so much fun together. Only two more months until I'm back at school... I can't believe summer is mostly half way over. Weird. And this could be my last summer home. Even weirder. Maybe I can get to sleep now...