Yuki: Breakfast
Oh look another! This one is long and I put Kota in it! <3 It was a small challenge writing him. But I think I did good. Let me know what you think please.
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Yuya woke me up this morning, I had forgotten he fell asleep in my apartment the night before. I felt him shake me awake, then as I woke he pinched my nose. “ Sleepy head.” I heard him say as I sat up and rubbed my eyes. Though once I moved my hands away I was a bit shocked. I mean Yuya was right there in front of me. I blushed after looking down and realizing I was in my pajamas. Slowly I got up and folded up my futon before carrying it to the closet where I store it. I glanced at Yuya and he smiled, I hid my blush and closed the closet door.
“Gomen. I slept at your place without permission and unexpectedly…” Yuya looked down, staring at his feet.
“Iyo…you were tired…” I replied and yawned a little. Really it wasn't that big of a deal.
“ Oh, thank you,” Yuya grinned, “ Thanks for the blanket, kept me warm,” Yuya smiled.
“You’re welcome,” I nodded and watched as he rubbed his eyes. Too cute!
“ So um… I’m not sure. But thank you,” Yuya laughed, I smiled.
“ You can keep the photos that we took together. Because you know, you took care of me, deshou?” Yuya nudged my shoulder and I nodded in response. I'm really not much of a talker when I first wake up.
“ Um…I don’t work today, but I do work for four days after today so…we can see each other at work. We can text each other too!” Yuya grinned, fixing the strands that were sticking out of his hair. Text each other? I don't know what we would talk about, though it still sounded like fun.
“ Umm…are you ok alone and all?” Yuya asked, concerned. I tilted my head and felt a little confused by his question. “ I mean…for breakfast…” I shrugged my shoulders, I didn't each much of a breakfast, most of the time it was leftover rice or something. I headed to the kitchen, Yuya close behind me. As we reached the kitchen, I opened the fridge, there was enough food to last for the week but nothing really for breakfast. That was pretty normal for me, a lot of the time I didn't have the time to make an actual breakfast.
“Hmm…”
“Nani?” I turned to look at Yuya, finding a frown on his face.
“Get dressed,” Yuya looked at me, “ I’m taking you to my house. We’re going to have breakfast there. Besides, I read your schedule, you work later on, so it wouldn’t be a hassle,” Yuya smiled. I stared at him for a moment, did he just say what I think he did? I replayed the words in my head. Yup he did. I nodded and smiled.
“Hai!” I then left the kitchen, heading to get some clothes.
I stared into my dresser drawer for a few moments, not knowing what to wear. I looked at the cute new skirt I had bought while shopping with Rai-chan, I wasn't sure and looked at the pair of jeans beside it. First impressions, Yuki. I grabbed the skirt and then the blouse I had bought to match it. I had remembered I had a spare uniform at work and could change into that there. I went and quickly changed in the washroom. I brushed my teeth and hair while I was in there and put my hair up in it's normal pony tail.
Looking myself over in the mirror I smiled, I liked this new Yuki. I headed out of the washroom to find Yuya waiting, he was sitting in my chair, magazine in hand. I smiled and grabbed my bag and cell phone, shoving the cell phone into the bag.
“Ready!” I said probably a bit too cheerfully.
I was really just excited, as well as a little nervous. This all meant that I finally get to meet his family, something that may bring us closer as friends. I hope they like me.
A little while later, Yuya and I were in front of where he lived. Even though I had been there before, it seemed so much bigger, probably because it was daylight. The last time it had been getting dark. We both looked at each other...
"Well, they're expecting us so...ikou?" Yuya unbuckled his seat and I followed suit and unbuckled my own. As we got out of the car Yuya walked over to the gates, it was locked. He pressed the bell.
"Hai~"
" It me Yuya and my friend, Yuki." Yuya said.
"Hai~"
The gates made a click sound and unlocked. We walked to the door and with each step I got even more nervous. Yuya turned the door knob and opened the door.
"Hai~" We entered the house and slipped off our shoes, there were so many there.
"Taidaima! And ohayou!" Yuya called out. I heard a chorus of "okaeri's" that made my heart skip a bit. I was really there, really meeting his family. I felt one of my panic attacks coming on and I tried my best to will it away, but it just wasn't working. I did my best to appear normal for the time being.
We walked in to the living room, there I saw ones of his brothers and a sister watching TV. I would soon find out that their names are Ryosuke and Aiko.
"The others?"
" They're in the dining room, setting the table and helping mom," Ryosuke responded.
"Oh, guys, this is my friend, Yuki," Yuya introduced me and I forced a smile hoping it didn't seem like it was so forced.
They turned around and said hi to me and I introduced myself. I felt just a little better and the smile didn't feel so forced. I felt Yuya take my hand as he lead me to the kitchen. Just like last time, the moment he took my hand the chaos in my mind subsided, and that oncoming panic attack slowly retreated. I felt relieved as we entered the kitchen, I wasn't all that nervous now.
There was a man there cooking, with three other people helping. Two more sisters, and another brother? I know I saw the pictures before, but there was only one sister that I saw. Such a big family.
"Ohayou mama," Yuya smiled.
So this is the 'mom'. Kawaii~
Kota turned around and smiled. Wait a minute he looks very familiar, I hadn't noticed when I looked at the pictures, but in person I feel like I've seen him before.
"Ohayou, are? You're Yuki?" Kota cleaned his right hand and shook my hand, smiling. I like him already, so nice.
"Hajimemashite. Yuya's talked about you a lot." Kota smiled.
"Aah, arigatou! Hajimemashite." I bowed. Yuya talks about me a lot? What on earth would he have to say about me, there isn't much to say. I looked up at Yuya for moment, really I've talked about him a lot with Rai, so I suppose we are even in that department.
Yuya took me to meet the rest of his family, there were so many of them, I don't think I can remember all of their names, at least I can remember his parent's names; those are the most important to remember. They all had very welcoming smiles, which made me feel so much better. From what I could gather, they liked me, and that was a huge weight lifted off my shoulders. One less worry to plague my mind.
Eventually we sat down to eat breakfast,we talked a bit about the summer festival. It seemed like everyone had a lot of fun.
" So Yuki, you work with Yuya and you go to the same college as him?" Hikaru asked me.
"Hai. It's nice," I politely smiled. Hikaru nodded, continuing to his breakfast. He seems like one of those concerned fathers. Like the kind that would indirectly threaten you while cleaning his shot gun, and tell you to have his daughter home by a certain time. Haha! I watch too many of those American movies.
" Iyaa...I've seen you on Yuya's cell," Ryutaro nodded. I couldn't help but blush a little and gave a little smile.
Yuya turned to look at Ryutaro, " Ryuu~" Yuya is cute when hes embarrassed. It's okay though I have him on my cell phone. Wait, when did he take a picture of me with his cell phone?
" So Yuki, is it hard, working all the time during the summer?" Keisuke asked.
"No actually, it's pretty fun," I nodded and smiled. I like work, I like to work, it keeps me busy. Plus I've been working since I was old enough to work. It's what I'm use to.
"Not to bring a weird atmosphere but Yuki, I feel like I've seen you before," Kota looked at me and I looked over at him. I had that same feeling with him. I just can't remember where I've seen him.
"Maybe during the summer festival?" Kei asked, I looked at Kei, I knew that wasn't it.
"No..." Kota shrugged his shoulders and continued to eat. Now that he brought it up it kind of bugged me a bit.
Once breakfast was done we didn't stay around much longer, I had to get to work. I thanked them for the food and said my goodbyes. Yuya had decided to walk me to work, I didn't mind it at all, of course.
As we walked, Yuya took my hand and held it, making my heart skip a beat.
"I hope that my family wasn't that...nosy...I'm not sure." Yuya looked at me,
I looked at the hand he was holding and then looked back at Yuya, " It's alright." I smiled.
Yuya stopped walking, I felt that he had stopped walking and was suddenly curious. I turned to look at him.
" Something wrong?" I asked. I was a bit concerned.
Yuya then lightly dragged me behind a wall.
"I can't hold it anymore." Yuya breathed. I suddenly felt nervous, he sounded serious. I wasn't prepared for what came next.
" I like you, Yuki." Yuya said. My heart felt like it stopped.
"I liked you for quite some time. My heart goes doki doki. It's my first time falling for a girl." Yuya looked down. " If you want...I can wait for your answer. There's no rush to it." Yuya pulled me into an embrace. Suddenly my own heart went doki doki and I got even more nervous and I was a little shocked.
"It's fast demo...my heart...I'm following it." Yuya whispered. I didn't say anything. I couldn't fin the words. I wanted to tell him so badly that I felt the same, that I like him.
There was an awkward silence. I mumbled something about work and pulled away from him. I hope my actions didn't hurt him. I headed to the store and waved to Yuya as I entered the convenience store to start working. Yuya waved and walked away.
I was still in a daze as I entered the store. My mind replayed those last few minutes, and still I almost couldn't believe it. What I couldn't believe the most was the fact I said nothing, at all. I felt so stupid, I should have said something. Did my silence hurt him? Would he think I didn't like him? These questions began to plague my mind as I headed to the back of the store. I hadn't heard Ikeda-san say good morning. I didn't hear anything he said at first.
“Yuki, are you okay?” I finally heard him say as I sat in the small break room. I was on the verge of tears.
“I-I don't know.” I stuttered and looked at him blankly.
Ikeda-san had been informed of panic attacks, after I had one at work one day, not too long after I had started working there. Rai-chan had come and calmed me down and she explained things to him then. So he knew, there was something wrong.
“You don't look well, take the day off.” he offered
I shook my head. “Iie..I can't..” those thoughts were still bombarding me, and I was trying to keep control, to keep from breaking.
“Hai, you can. I can call Yuya in.”
“No! Please, dont' call him in!” I half shouted, though the mention of Yuya had cause those tears that were threatning to break free, to finally escape. I noticed Impedance take a step back.
“I'll call Dr. Omori” Ikea said and went for the phone.
“Please....no..I’ll. I’ll go to her..” I said wiping away the tears.
“I think you should stay here..” he sounded concerned.
“I'll be back in about an hour, Ojiisan” I said as I stood up and walked out. I think calling him Ojiisan reassured him I would be okay on my own because he didn't try and stop me.
Once outside the store I was still crying and I dug my phone out of my bag, I hit the speed-dial for Rai. It rang and there was no answer. This of course didn't help me any at all, I began to panic even more. I managed to remember that she was working today so that meant she was at the orphanage. Not answering her phone meant she was busy.
I didn't leave a message and I flipped my phone shut shoving it back in my bag. Without much thought I began to walk, my feet leading the way down the all familiar route to the orphanage. This of course gave my mind time to think of ridiculous things. Things that made me freak out and panic all the more. I really needed Rai.
I don't know when it happened but I started running. I took the shortcut I use to take when I walked from work to the orphanage. Suddenly I heard my name being called and I turned to look and ended up stumbling and falling this time. As I fell I scraped my knee up pretty badly and some of the contents of my bag spilled, including my cell phone and a small bottle of pills.
“Yuki? Are you okay?” the voice was familiar but I couldn't place it. My body ached from the fall and I suddenly just didn't have the desire to get up. I did however sit up wiping tears away as I looked at my knee. It was bleeding, and it stung badly. I looked over seeing my phone. I reached for it,.
“Yuki?” the voice was closer. I dialed Rai's number completely ignoring who was talking to me. Still no answer. I felt abandoned. I started to cry more, and pulled my knees to my chest wrapping my arms around my legs, I started to shake, mumbling things. The world around me grew dark, and I felt so very alone. That was until I felt arms wrap around me, comforting me.
“It's okay Yuki. You're not alone anymore.” the voice was calm and soothing. I kept my eyes close trying to calm down, but it wasn't working just yet.
I felt those arms leave me, and I whimpered some. I then heard the familiar sound of the bottle of pills I kept in my bag.
“Take it, Yuki.” the calm voice said and I felt a pill being pressed to my lips. I reluctantly took it and swallowed it. The arms the moved back around me holding me tight and close. It felt like forever but eventually I calmed down, at least enough to think clearly.
I opened my eyes and was shocked at who I saw.
“Kota?” I questioned as I blinked.
“Hai.” was the response I got along with a light squeeze from his arms around me.
I blushed, and felt embarrassed. Then I remembered that shortcut when right down the street they lived on. I had run right past their house only to fall practically in front of it. All while having a panic attack, because of Yuya's confession and my stupidity of not saying anything to him after wards.
The panic started to come back some, but was kept at bay by my medicine Kota made me take. How did he know?
When the tears finally stopped I wiped them away and Kota let me go.
“Gomen..” I said weakly as I looked at the ground.
“What for?”
I blushed, I didn't know what I was sorry for. I gathered my things and stood wincing some. “Itai!” I looked at my knee, it was already bruised around the scrap and was a little swollen, but the bleeding had stopped.
“Let's get you cleaned up.” Kota gave a comforting smile.
“I..please..I don't want Yuya to see me like this.” I confessed and blushed some.
He smiled and nodded in understanding.”At least let me take you to where you were going, I was headed out anyway.”
I looked away. My knee did hurt really bad, and the orphanage was still a ways away. I looked at him and hesitantly nodded.
Kota kindly helped me to and into his car and I buckled up. He got in and started the car buckling up as well.
“Where to?” he questioned as he looked over at me.
“Ano...the orphanage, the one a few miles from here..” I watched as Kota nodded and looked forward. We drove off to the orphanage. It was silent for a bit.
“Yuki, I meant what I said. You're not alone.” Kota said as he glanced at me for a moment, a smile on his face.
I blushed and smiled some.
“You are part of the family now.” his words sounded honest and sincere. It made me smile, and I felt happy hearing those words.
“Arigatou..” I replied softly still blushing a little. Family? I was part of the family, his family? I've never had a family. As happy as those words made me feel, a part of me didn't want to believe them.
It wasn't took much longer until we arrived at the orphanage and parked. We unbuckled and got out, Kota helping as I limped from my injured knee. Once inside we were greeted by the receptionist. She didn't ask anything as she noticed my current state, she had seen me like this before, minus the hurt knee. She gave a simple nod and picked up the phone, letting Rai know I was there.
Still with Kota's help I headed to Rai's office and as we approached she opened the door and stepped out.
“Yuki?! Are you okay?”she asked sounding concerned.
“Hai, I will be, Rai-chan.” I said weakly. I glanced up at Kota for a second and Rai then noticed him. She simply smiled and gave him a nod, it confused me. I watched as he returned the smile.
“I will wait for you, Yuki.” he said kindly.
I opened my mouth to protest but he gave me that look, the one that says you should know better than to argue. I nodded.
“Arigatou..” I smiled before Rai-chan led me into her office.
We sat in silence for a few moments, it had been a long time since I had been in her office. It wasn't that comforting to me, because the orphanage had never been to comforting.
“What happened?” she asked and motioned towards my knee. She was serious and in her councilor mode.
“I fell.”
“How?”
“I was running.”
“Why were you running?”
I looked at the floor.
“Yuki, why were you running?” she asked again.
“I was trying to get here, to talk to you.” I looked back up at her. “I called and I didn't get an answer, and..” the tears came back and Rai offered me a tissue. I took it and wiped my tears away.
“And?”
“I panicked, even more.”
“Ah. So what made you panic?”
“Yuya.”
I watched as she raised a brow and wrote something down. I looked away again.
“How did Yuya make you panic?”
I thought about her question. It was completely his fault, I mean. I was mostly panicking over the fact I said nothing to him when he confessed to me.
“He...told me he liked me...that his heart goes doki doki.” I continued to look away.
“Look at me when you speak to me Yuki.” she said sternly. I know better than not to do so.
“Gomen...” I said softly and looked at her once more.
“So, Yuya confessed to you?”
“Hai. But I didn't say anything to him. I couldn't get the words out. I wanted so badly to tell him I feel the same, that my heart goes doki doki too. I said nothing though. I just..pushed him away and went on to work.” I wiped more tears away.
“I see.”
“I'm afraid I hurt him Rai-chan. I'm afraid that by saying nothing and just pushing him away like that hurt him. I don't want him to hurt because of me.”
Rai let out a soft chuckle and smiled. I gave her a rather confused look.
“You, panicked because you were afraid you hurt Yuya. Usually you panic because you are afraid of being hurt.” she pointed out. I gave a little smile. I was worried about Yuya's feelings. I had never been worried about anyone before.
“I told you I really like him.” I blushed. “Thank you Rai-chan. I feel a lot better now” I smiled.”Though I have Kota to thank as well, he helped me. I fell in front of his house, and..I tried calling you again and you didn't answer..and..”
“It made things worse?” she questioned.
I nodded. “My pills fell out of my bag and he made me take one.”
“Oh, I’m so sorry Yuki.” she said and moved over next to me and hugged me. “I didn't know it had gotten that bad.”
“Demo, I’m okay now.” I said happily, and Rai moved away and suddenly grinned as she put away my file.
“Have you had dinner with Yuya yet?” she asked.
“Hai! Last night!”
“Kawaii!” Rai grinned.
“We took pictures too. Then we talked for a bit. He ended up staying the night.” I blushed. Rai gave a look and she smirked. I knew exactly what she was thinking.
“Rai!! No! We didn't do that! He just fell asleep.” I blushed..
“Yeah sure he did Yuki.” she teased.
“Anyway! I ended up having breakfast with his family this morning. I really enjoyed myself.” I smiled.
“Ah! You got to meet his family!”
“Hai, they are really nice I like them.”
“That's good, Yuki.” she smiled and then looked at her watch.
“Ah, I should go. You have work.” I said and quickly stood. I winced and headed to the door.
“I still have some time Yuki.” she said and I stopped and turned looking at her.
“Oh.”
“Hai. Oh I was wondering...do you know Kota?” I asked without much thought.
Rai nodded “I need to speak with him, about you.”
“Me?”
“Yes, I need to inform him on your situation, that is if you don't mind, Yuki.”
“No, of course not, please tell him, I don't think I could.” I knew what Rai meant. I somehow just knew that since she knew Kota then she knew he was one of Yuya's parents. “I'll get him.”
Rai smiled and I opened the door and limped out to the waiting area. Kota smiled as I entered.
“Ano, Rai wants to speak with you.” I said hesitantly and would lead him to her office.
Once inside I looked at Rai. “Since you are going to be talking about me, I'm going to go to the nurse.” she nodded and I limped out heading to the nurse.
There the nurse greeted me with a smile and happily took care of my knee. She cleaned it up and bandaged it, then had me put some ice on it for awhile to get rid of the swelling.
Ten minutes later I saw Kota and Rai enter the nurses office to get me. I got a warm smile from both of them.
“Ready to go, Yuki?” Kota asked.
“Hai!” I said and stood up. My knee felt much better now. I thanked the nurse and thanked Rai-chan.
A few minutes later we were in the car and headed back.
“Can you take me to my work?” I asked hesitantly.
“Of course, Yuki.” Kota smiled and kept his eyes on the road.
“I was wondering, what did Rai tell you?” I questioned curiously.
“She told me you were left at the orphanage when you were a baby and that you grew up there.” he said and I looked over at him, he had a bit of sadness in his eyes. “She also told me about your panic attacks, and well pretty much everything about you.”
“Ah okay.” I replied as I looked at the road myself, we were almost to my work. I felt completely comfortable with him now. I even got this weird motherly vibe from him, that made me feel I could tell him just about anything.
“This morning at breakfast...you said that you feel like you've seen me somewhere before...I got the same feeling when I first saw you, but I can't figure out where I saw you before.” I said as I looked at him.
He smiled “Hai. I saw you when you were little, at the orphanage.”
My eyes widened at his words and we stopped in front of the store. Somehow I suddenly remember seeing him there too when I was little. He was adopting a boy, I remember because I was so jealous. I wanted to be the one to go home with him. For some reason though I couldn't remember what the boy looked like. The sad thing was, I knew that boy now.
“I remember seeing you there now. You were adopting a boy. Though I don't remember him. Who was it?” I asked curiously as I unbuckled my seat belt.
“Ah, that you will have to find out on your own.” he grinned as he looked at me.
I pouted a little.
“Arigatou Mr-”
“Call me Kota, or mama” he winked.
I blushed and then smiled before getting out, before I closed the door I leaned down to look at him once more, a smile on my face. “Arigatou, mama” I said and would close the door. I looked back at the care to see him smiling at me. I waved and he waved back.
I entered the store feeling so much happier than before. It wasn't just because of the meds.
“Tadaima!!” I called out happily as I entered.
Ikeda was helping a customer who happened to be a regular. I bowed to the customer and greeted her before I headed to the back. I took my spare uniform out of my locker. I went to the restroom and quickly changed before putting my bag and clothes into the locker.
Ikeda-san didn't question me about what had happened, it was better that way. Instead we just went on as if none of what happened had happened. To make up for the lost time of my shift I stayed a little later than needed.
As soon as I got off work I took out my phone. I looked at it for a moment. I wanted to see Yuya again. I wanted to tell him how I feel. I feel like I'm ready now. But...Is it too soon?
I'll tell him tomorrow, after work.
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Yuya woke me up this morning, I had forgotten he fell asleep in my apartment the night before. I felt him shake me awake, then as I woke he pinched my nose. “ Sleepy head.” I heard him say as I sat up and rubbed my eyes. Though once I moved my hands away I was a bit shocked. I mean Yuya was right there in front of me. I blushed after looking down and realizing I was in my pajamas. Slowly I got up and folded up my futon before carrying it to the closet where I store it. I glanced at Yuya and he smiled, I hid my blush and closed the closet door.
“Gomen. I slept at your place without permission and unexpectedly…” Yuya looked down, staring at his feet.
“Iyo…you were tired…” I replied and yawned a little. Really it wasn't that big of a deal.
“ Oh, thank you,” Yuya grinned, “ Thanks for the blanket, kept me warm,” Yuya smiled.
“You’re welcome,” I nodded and watched as he rubbed his eyes. Too cute!
“ So um… I’m not sure. But thank you,” Yuya laughed, I smiled.
“ You can keep the photos that we took together. Because you know, you took care of me, deshou?” Yuya nudged my shoulder and I nodded in response. I'm really not much of a talker when I first wake up.
“ Um…I don’t work today, but I do work for four days after today so…we can see each other at work. We can text each other too!” Yuya grinned, fixing the strands that were sticking out of his hair. Text each other? I don't know what we would talk about, though it still sounded like fun.
“ Umm…are you ok alone and all?” Yuya asked, concerned. I tilted my head and felt a little confused by his question. “ I mean…for breakfast…” I shrugged my shoulders, I didn't each much of a breakfast, most of the time it was leftover rice or something. I headed to the kitchen, Yuya close behind me. As we reached the kitchen, I opened the fridge, there was enough food to last for the week but nothing really for breakfast. That was pretty normal for me, a lot of the time I didn't have the time to make an actual breakfast.
“Hmm…”
“Nani?” I turned to look at Yuya, finding a frown on his face.
“Get dressed,” Yuya looked at me, “ I’m taking you to my house. We’re going to have breakfast there. Besides, I read your schedule, you work later on, so it wouldn’t be a hassle,” Yuya smiled. I stared at him for a moment, did he just say what I think he did? I replayed the words in my head. Yup he did. I nodded and smiled.
“Hai!” I then left the kitchen, heading to get some clothes.
I stared into my dresser drawer for a few moments, not knowing what to wear. I looked at the cute new skirt I had bought while shopping with Rai-chan, I wasn't sure and looked at the pair of jeans beside it. First impressions, Yuki. I grabbed the skirt and then the blouse I had bought to match it. I had remembered I had a spare uniform at work and could change into that there. I went and quickly changed in the washroom. I brushed my teeth and hair while I was in there and put my hair up in it's normal pony tail.
Looking myself over in the mirror I smiled, I liked this new Yuki. I headed out of the washroom to find Yuya waiting, he was sitting in my chair, magazine in hand. I smiled and grabbed my bag and cell phone, shoving the cell phone into the bag.
“Ready!” I said probably a bit too cheerfully.
I was really just excited, as well as a little nervous. This all meant that I finally get to meet his family, something that may bring us closer as friends. I hope they like me.
A little while later, Yuya and I were in front of where he lived. Even though I had been there before, it seemed so much bigger, probably because it was daylight. The last time it had been getting dark. We both looked at each other...
"Well, they're expecting us so...ikou?" Yuya unbuckled his seat and I followed suit and unbuckled my own. As we got out of the car Yuya walked over to the gates, it was locked. He pressed the bell.
"Hai~"
" It me Yuya and my friend, Yuki." Yuya said.
"Hai~"
The gates made a click sound and unlocked. We walked to the door and with each step I got even more nervous. Yuya turned the door knob and opened the door.
"Hai~" We entered the house and slipped off our shoes, there were so many there.
"Taidaima! And ohayou!" Yuya called out. I heard a chorus of "okaeri's" that made my heart skip a bit. I was really there, really meeting his family. I felt one of my panic attacks coming on and I tried my best to will it away, but it just wasn't working. I did my best to appear normal for the time being.
We walked in to the living room, there I saw ones of his brothers and a sister watching TV. I would soon find out that their names are Ryosuke and Aiko.
"The others?"
" They're in the dining room, setting the table and helping mom," Ryosuke responded.
"Oh, guys, this is my friend, Yuki," Yuya introduced me and I forced a smile hoping it didn't seem like it was so forced.
They turned around and said hi to me and I introduced myself. I felt just a little better and the smile didn't feel so forced. I felt Yuya take my hand as he lead me to the kitchen. Just like last time, the moment he took my hand the chaos in my mind subsided, and that oncoming panic attack slowly retreated. I felt relieved as we entered the kitchen, I wasn't all that nervous now.
There was a man there cooking, with three other people helping. Two more sisters, and another brother? I know I saw the pictures before, but there was only one sister that I saw. Such a big family.
"Ohayou mama," Yuya smiled.
So this is the 'mom'. Kawaii~
Kota turned around and smiled. Wait a minute he looks very familiar, I hadn't noticed when I looked at the pictures, but in person I feel like I've seen him before.
"Ohayou, are? You're Yuki?" Kota cleaned his right hand and shook my hand, smiling. I like him already, so nice.
"Hajimemashite. Yuya's talked about you a lot." Kota smiled.
"Aah, arigatou! Hajimemashite." I bowed. Yuya talks about me a lot? What on earth would he have to say about me, there isn't much to say. I looked up at Yuya for moment, really I've talked about him a lot with Rai, so I suppose we are even in that department.
Yuya took me to meet the rest of his family, there were so many of them, I don't think I can remember all of their names, at least I can remember his parent's names; those are the most important to remember. They all had very welcoming smiles, which made me feel so much better. From what I could gather, they liked me, and that was a huge weight lifted off my shoulders. One less worry to plague my mind.
Eventually we sat down to eat breakfast,we talked a bit about the summer festival. It seemed like everyone had a lot of fun.
" So Yuki, you work with Yuya and you go to the same college as him?" Hikaru asked me.
"Hai. It's nice," I politely smiled. Hikaru nodded, continuing to his breakfast. He seems like one of those concerned fathers. Like the kind that would indirectly threaten you while cleaning his shot gun, and tell you to have his daughter home by a certain time. Haha! I watch too many of those American movies.
" Iyaa...I've seen you on Yuya's cell," Ryutaro nodded. I couldn't help but blush a little and gave a little smile.
Yuya turned to look at Ryutaro, " Ryuu~" Yuya is cute when hes embarrassed. It's okay though I have him on my cell phone. Wait, when did he take a picture of me with his cell phone?
" So Yuki, is it hard, working all the time during the summer?" Keisuke asked.
"No actually, it's pretty fun," I nodded and smiled. I like work, I like to work, it keeps me busy. Plus I've been working since I was old enough to work. It's what I'm use to.
"Not to bring a weird atmosphere but Yuki, I feel like I've seen you before," Kota looked at me and I looked over at him. I had that same feeling with him. I just can't remember where I've seen him.
"Maybe during the summer festival?" Kei asked, I looked at Kei, I knew that wasn't it.
"No..." Kota shrugged his shoulders and continued to eat. Now that he brought it up it kind of bugged me a bit.
Once breakfast was done we didn't stay around much longer, I had to get to work. I thanked them for the food and said my goodbyes. Yuya had decided to walk me to work, I didn't mind it at all, of course.
As we walked, Yuya took my hand and held it, making my heart skip a beat.
"I hope that my family wasn't that...nosy...I'm not sure." Yuya looked at me,
I looked at the hand he was holding and then looked back at Yuya, " It's alright." I smiled.
Yuya stopped walking, I felt that he had stopped walking and was suddenly curious. I turned to look at him.
" Something wrong?" I asked. I was a bit concerned.
Yuya then lightly dragged me behind a wall.
"I can't hold it anymore." Yuya breathed. I suddenly felt nervous, he sounded serious. I wasn't prepared for what came next.
" I like you, Yuki." Yuya said. My heart felt like it stopped.
"I liked you for quite some time. My heart goes doki doki. It's my first time falling for a girl." Yuya looked down. " If you want...I can wait for your answer. There's no rush to it." Yuya pulled me into an embrace. Suddenly my own heart went doki doki and I got even more nervous and I was a little shocked.
"It's fast demo...my heart...I'm following it." Yuya whispered. I didn't say anything. I couldn't fin the words. I wanted to tell him so badly that I felt the same, that I like him.
There was an awkward silence. I mumbled something about work and pulled away from him. I hope my actions didn't hurt him. I headed to the store and waved to Yuya as I entered the convenience store to start working. Yuya waved and walked away.
I was still in a daze as I entered the store. My mind replayed those last few minutes, and still I almost couldn't believe it. What I couldn't believe the most was the fact I said nothing, at all. I felt so stupid, I should have said something. Did my silence hurt him? Would he think I didn't like him? These questions began to plague my mind as I headed to the back of the store. I hadn't heard Ikeda-san say good morning. I didn't hear anything he said at first.
“Yuki, are you okay?” I finally heard him say as I sat in the small break room. I was on the verge of tears.
“I-I don't know.” I stuttered and looked at him blankly.
Ikeda-san had been informed of panic attacks, after I had one at work one day, not too long after I had started working there. Rai-chan had come and calmed me down and she explained things to him then. So he knew, there was something wrong.
“You don't look well, take the day off.” he offered
I shook my head. “Iie..I can't..” those thoughts were still bombarding me, and I was trying to keep control, to keep from breaking.
“Hai, you can. I can call Yuya in.”
“No! Please, dont' call him in!” I half shouted, though the mention of Yuya had cause those tears that were threatning to break free, to finally escape. I noticed Impedance take a step back.
“I'll call Dr. Omori” Ikea said and went for the phone.
“Please....no..I’ll. I’ll go to her..” I said wiping away the tears.
“I think you should stay here..” he sounded concerned.
“I'll be back in about an hour, Ojiisan” I said as I stood up and walked out. I think calling him Ojiisan reassured him I would be okay on my own because he didn't try and stop me.
Once outside the store I was still crying and I dug my phone out of my bag, I hit the speed-dial for Rai. It rang and there was no answer. This of course didn't help me any at all, I began to panic even more. I managed to remember that she was working today so that meant she was at the orphanage. Not answering her phone meant she was busy.
I didn't leave a message and I flipped my phone shut shoving it back in my bag. Without much thought I began to walk, my feet leading the way down the all familiar route to the orphanage. This of course gave my mind time to think of ridiculous things. Things that made me freak out and panic all the more. I really needed Rai.
I don't know when it happened but I started running. I took the shortcut I use to take when I walked from work to the orphanage. Suddenly I heard my name being called and I turned to look and ended up stumbling and falling this time. As I fell I scraped my knee up pretty badly and some of the contents of my bag spilled, including my cell phone and a small bottle of pills.
“Yuki? Are you okay?” the voice was familiar but I couldn't place it. My body ached from the fall and I suddenly just didn't have the desire to get up. I did however sit up wiping tears away as I looked at my knee. It was bleeding, and it stung badly. I looked over seeing my phone. I reached for it,.
“Yuki?” the voice was closer. I dialed Rai's number completely ignoring who was talking to me. Still no answer. I felt abandoned. I started to cry more, and pulled my knees to my chest wrapping my arms around my legs, I started to shake, mumbling things. The world around me grew dark, and I felt so very alone. That was until I felt arms wrap around me, comforting me.
“It's okay Yuki. You're not alone anymore.” the voice was calm and soothing. I kept my eyes close trying to calm down, but it wasn't working just yet.
I felt those arms leave me, and I whimpered some. I then heard the familiar sound of the bottle of pills I kept in my bag.
“Take it, Yuki.” the calm voice said and I felt a pill being pressed to my lips. I reluctantly took it and swallowed it. The arms the moved back around me holding me tight and close. It felt like forever but eventually I calmed down, at least enough to think clearly.
I opened my eyes and was shocked at who I saw.
“Kota?” I questioned as I blinked.
“Hai.” was the response I got along with a light squeeze from his arms around me.
I blushed, and felt embarrassed. Then I remembered that shortcut when right down the street they lived on. I had run right past their house only to fall practically in front of it. All while having a panic attack, because of Yuya's confession and my stupidity of not saying anything to him after wards.
The panic started to come back some, but was kept at bay by my medicine Kota made me take. How did he know?
When the tears finally stopped I wiped them away and Kota let me go.
“Gomen..” I said weakly as I looked at the ground.
“What for?”
I blushed, I didn't know what I was sorry for. I gathered my things and stood wincing some. “Itai!” I looked at my knee, it was already bruised around the scrap and was a little swollen, but the bleeding had stopped.
“Let's get you cleaned up.” Kota gave a comforting smile.
“I..please..I don't want Yuya to see me like this.” I confessed and blushed some.
He smiled and nodded in understanding.”At least let me take you to where you were going, I was headed out anyway.”
I looked away. My knee did hurt really bad, and the orphanage was still a ways away. I looked at him and hesitantly nodded.
Kota kindly helped me to and into his car and I buckled up. He got in and started the car buckling up as well.
“Where to?” he questioned as he looked over at me.
“Ano...the orphanage, the one a few miles from here..” I watched as Kota nodded and looked forward. We drove off to the orphanage. It was silent for a bit.
“Yuki, I meant what I said. You're not alone.” Kota said as he glanced at me for a moment, a smile on his face.
I blushed and smiled some.
“You are part of the family now.” his words sounded honest and sincere. It made me smile, and I felt happy hearing those words.
“Arigatou..” I replied softly still blushing a little. Family? I was part of the family, his family? I've never had a family. As happy as those words made me feel, a part of me didn't want to believe them.
It wasn't took much longer until we arrived at the orphanage and parked. We unbuckled and got out, Kota helping as I limped from my injured knee. Once inside we were greeted by the receptionist. She didn't ask anything as she noticed my current state, she had seen me like this before, minus the hurt knee. She gave a simple nod and picked up the phone, letting Rai know I was there.
Still with Kota's help I headed to Rai's office and as we approached she opened the door and stepped out.
“Yuki?! Are you okay?”she asked sounding concerned.
“Hai, I will be, Rai-chan.” I said weakly. I glanced up at Kota for a second and Rai then noticed him. She simply smiled and gave him a nod, it confused me. I watched as he returned the smile.
“I will wait for you, Yuki.” he said kindly.
I opened my mouth to protest but he gave me that look, the one that says you should know better than to argue. I nodded.
“Arigatou..” I smiled before Rai-chan led me into her office.
We sat in silence for a few moments, it had been a long time since I had been in her office. It wasn't that comforting to me, because the orphanage had never been to comforting.
“What happened?” she asked and motioned towards my knee. She was serious and in her councilor mode.
“I fell.”
“How?”
“I was running.”
“Why were you running?”
I looked at the floor.
“Yuki, why were you running?” she asked again.
“I was trying to get here, to talk to you.” I looked back up at her. “I called and I didn't get an answer, and..” the tears came back and Rai offered me a tissue. I took it and wiped my tears away.
“And?”
“I panicked, even more.”
“Ah. So what made you panic?”
“Yuya.”
I watched as she raised a brow and wrote something down. I looked away again.
“How did Yuya make you panic?”
I thought about her question. It was completely his fault, I mean. I was mostly panicking over the fact I said nothing to him when he confessed to me.
“He...told me he liked me...that his heart goes doki doki.” I continued to look away.
“Look at me when you speak to me Yuki.” she said sternly. I know better than not to do so.
“Gomen...” I said softly and looked at her once more.
“So, Yuya confessed to you?”
“Hai. But I didn't say anything to him. I couldn't get the words out. I wanted so badly to tell him I feel the same, that my heart goes doki doki too. I said nothing though. I just..pushed him away and went on to work.” I wiped more tears away.
“I see.”
“I'm afraid I hurt him Rai-chan. I'm afraid that by saying nothing and just pushing him away like that hurt him. I don't want him to hurt because of me.”
Rai let out a soft chuckle and smiled. I gave her a rather confused look.
“You, panicked because you were afraid you hurt Yuya. Usually you panic because you are afraid of being hurt.” she pointed out. I gave a little smile. I was worried about Yuya's feelings. I had never been worried about anyone before.
“I told you I really like him.” I blushed. “Thank you Rai-chan. I feel a lot better now” I smiled.”Though I have Kota to thank as well, he helped me. I fell in front of his house, and..I tried calling you again and you didn't answer..and..”
“It made things worse?” she questioned.
I nodded. “My pills fell out of my bag and he made me take one.”
“Oh, I’m so sorry Yuki.” she said and moved over next to me and hugged me. “I didn't know it had gotten that bad.”
“Demo, I’m okay now.” I said happily, and Rai moved away and suddenly grinned as she put away my file.
“Have you had dinner with Yuya yet?” she asked.
“Hai! Last night!”
“Kawaii!” Rai grinned.
“We took pictures too. Then we talked for a bit. He ended up staying the night.” I blushed. Rai gave a look and she smirked. I knew exactly what she was thinking.
“Rai!! No! We didn't do that! He just fell asleep.” I blushed..
“Yeah sure he did Yuki.” she teased.
“Anyway! I ended up having breakfast with his family this morning. I really enjoyed myself.” I smiled.
“Ah! You got to meet his family!”
“Hai, they are really nice I like them.”
“That's good, Yuki.” she smiled and then looked at her watch.
“Ah, I should go. You have work.” I said and quickly stood. I winced and headed to the door.
“I still have some time Yuki.” she said and I stopped and turned looking at her.
“Oh.”
“Hai. Oh I was wondering...do you know Kota?” I asked without much thought.
Rai nodded “I need to speak with him, about you.”
“Me?”
“Yes, I need to inform him on your situation, that is if you don't mind, Yuki.”
“No, of course not, please tell him, I don't think I could.” I knew what Rai meant. I somehow just knew that since she knew Kota then she knew he was one of Yuya's parents. “I'll get him.”
Rai smiled and I opened the door and limped out to the waiting area. Kota smiled as I entered.
“Ano, Rai wants to speak with you.” I said hesitantly and would lead him to her office.
Once inside I looked at Rai. “Since you are going to be talking about me, I'm going to go to the nurse.” she nodded and I limped out heading to the nurse.
There the nurse greeted me with a smile and happily took care of my knee. She cleaned it up and bandaged it, then had me put some ice on it for awhile to get rid of the swelling.
Ten minutes later I saw Kota and Rai enter the nurses office to get me. I got a warm smile from both of them.
“Ready to go, Yuki?” Kota asked.
“Hai!” I said and stood up. My knee felt much better now. I thanked the nurse and thanked Rai-chan.
A few minutes later we were in the car and headed back.
“Can you take me to my work?” I asked hesitantly.
“Of course, Yuki.” Kota smiled and kept his eyes on the road.
“I was wondering, what did Rai tell you?” I questioned curiously.
“She told me you were left at the orphanage when you were a baby and that you grew up there.” he said and I looked over at him, he had a bit of sadness in his eyes. “She also told me about your panic attacks, and well pretty much everything about you.”
“Ah okay.” I replied as I looked at the road myself, we were almost to my work. I felt completely comfortable with him now. I even got this weird motherly vibe from him, that made me feel I could tell him just about anything.
“This morning at breakfast...you said that you feel like you've seen me somewhere before...I got the same feeling when I first saw you, but I can't figure out where I saw you before.” I said as I looked at him.
He smiled “Hai. I saw you when you were little, at the orphanage.”
My eyes widened at his words and we stopped in front of the store. Somehow I suddenly remember seeing him there too when I was little. He was adopting a boy, I remember because I was so jealous. I wanted to be the one to go home with him. For some reason though I couldn't remember what the boy looked like. The sad thing was, I knew that boy now.
“I remember seeing you there now. You were adopting a boy. Though I don't remember him. Who was it?” I asked curiously as I unbuckled my seat belt.
“Ah, that you will have to find out on your own.” he grinned as he looked at me.
I pouted a little.
“Arigatou Mr-”
“Call me Kota, or mama” he winked.
I blushed and then smiled before getting out, before I closed the door I leaned down to look at him once more, a smile on my face. “Arigatou, mama” I said and would close the door. I looked back at the care to see him smiling at me. I waved and he waved back.
I entered the store feeling so much happier than before. It wasn't just because of the meds.
“Tadaima!!” I called out happily as I entered.
Ikeda was helping a customer who happened to be a regular. I bowed to the customer and greeted her before I headed to the back. I took my spare uniform out of my locker. I went to the restroom and quickly changed before putting my bag and clothes into the locker.
Ikeda-san didn't question me about what had happened, it was better that way. Instead we just went on as if none of what happened had happened. To make up for the lost time of my shift I stayed a little later than needed.
As soon as I got off work I took out my phone. I looked at it for a moment. I wanted to see Yuya again. I wanted to tell him how I feel. I feel like I'm ready now. But...Is it too soon?
I'll tell him tomorrow, after work.