not much longer now...
So, life's been really surreal lately. Having to say goodbye is weird, actually easier than I had anticipated, but all the same it's strange. Every night, I say goodbye to someone else, and then the next night, there's one less person around to say goodbye to the next person. It's getting kind of depressing now though because as of now, there are three of us left. It's nice to go late cuz I have more time to get ready, but it sucks to be left behind. I guess it hasn't been that hard so far because it just doesn't feel like goodbye when it's to my friends. I've already talked to a bunch of people who've left online, and I know I'll see them, some as soon as October, others at Thanksgiving. It just doesn't feel real, which I guess is ok. I just can't lose touch. I can't lose touch. I can't lose touch. That's what I'm most afraid of.
The goodbyes to other people, who I'm not still going to talk to all the time, those are hard. On Monday, I had my last voice lesson, and it was so sad. I've only studied with Kerry for a year and a half, but it feels like so much longer. She's amazing. I went from being heartbroken about leaving my first voice teacher to falling in love with my new one within one lesson. She's taught me so much and I owe her so much--basically, she's the reason I got into college. Beyond the teaching, she has been amazingly helpful and supportive. I've improved so much and she's gotten me set on an amazing path for college. I'm sure I'll see her next summer, but it won't be the same. It was just hard to say goodbye to someone who's helped and inspired me so much. I hope she's proud of the work I've done and the progress I've made. I really want her to be happy with what I've accomplished. I hate to think I've disappointed people--I don't think I have, but I do worry that in one way or another, I'm not good enough. I'll work on that. Wow, I do get quite attached to people:)
So, little by little, I guess I'm getting ready for school. I don't leave til Wednesday (which might actually change to Tuesday, we'll see), but I'm working all day Fri, Sat, and Sun, so I just feel like I have so much to do and no time to do it. And there are still people I need to see.
These last few days are strange
The goodbyes to other people, who I'm not still going to talk to all the time, those are hard. On Monday, I had my last voice lesson, and it was so sad. I've only studied with Kerry for a year and a half, but it feels like so much longer. She's amazing. I went from being heartbroken about leaving my first voice teacher to falling in love with my new one within one lesson. She's taught me so much and I owe her so much--basically, she's the reason I got into college. Beyond the teaching, she has been amazingly helpful and supportive. I've improved so much and she's gotten me set on an amazing path for college. I'm sure I'll see her next summer, but it won't be the same. It was just hard to say goodbye to someone who's helped and inspired me so much. I hope she's proud of the work I've done and the progress I've made. I really want her to be happy with what I've accomplished. I hate to think I've disappointed people--I don't think I have, but I do worry that in one way or another, I'm not good enough. I'll work on that. Wow, I do get quite attached to people:)
So, little by little, I guess I'm getting ready for school. I don't leave til Wednesday (which might actually change to Tuesday, we'll see), but I'm working all day Fri, Sat, and Sun, so I just feel like I have so much to do and no time to do it. And there are still people I need to see.
These last few days are strange