i am sick of this

[sparx_of_gold]

i am sick of all this crap that always seems to come between everyone. Come on, i mean it. Every single time someone gets angry it is at me. Why? because maybe i did something wrong, or maybe i am just the easiest one to put the blame on. Every morning i wake up wondering if maybe just by a slight bit of luck and some help from god that maybe for once in the entire sophomore year, that all of us would get along. GET ALONG FOR ONE FU**ING DAY. But no,we aren't. Maybe this is a test, that i need to get through. Or maybe the devil is just having a field day with my life. Guys, i am trying my hardest to fix things, but when it feels like everyone is avoiding me, it feels like becca is the only one i have. That is why i spend time with her, cuz she knows what i am going through. Becca was right, if you guys are my friends, where were you on my birthday telling matt to go away when he wanted to fight me.....o yeah that's right. "He has a rough life at home and it is ok if he takes it out on poor tucker who is just a pussy and won't fight him." yeah i remember now. You guys mean the world to me. but when you guys talk behind my back (i know you do). i feel kinda the oppisite. Guys if you guys just don't want to fix things, and if you guys just want to hate me for the rest of eternity. Than fine, i will take becca's aproach. If you guys want to fix stuff with me come talk to me about it. cuz i am sick of always trying to fix stuff, when no one wants to listen to me.

-Tucker

P.S. oh yeah, by the way, stop treating becca like crap everyone. She is a human being, and she does have feelings. and you guys are treating her like a rag doll.