Long time coming .. .
So i haven't written in this thing in a long time. I don't even know what is happening to me that is worth writing about. I guess a lot. But my life isn't so exciting. So read on if you want...
I found a place to live for the summer. I'm living with Erin, Jamie, and Jessica from the cafe. Its an apartment in Capstone, which is pretty cheap, and nice. I'm paying 195 a month. I am taking 2 summer classes. I still need to find a job. I am getting so fucking frustrated with the job situation. I have applied at so many places, had 3 interviews and still nothing. I am considering going to the outback in lansing to apply tomorrow. I have put it off for this long, but i am stuck. I need to make money in order to pay for my apartment. I need to save money for my house. I hate money. Every thing always deals with fucking money. I have none. I need some. That's all I know. I wish I could do all the things that I wanted to do. I wish I could be fortunate like some people. I wish I had more time to work, so I could pay for all the things that I wanted to do. The last weeks of school are so stressful, and I just need to relax for once. But grr. Then NO MONEY.
I'm really excited for the house for next year. We went to go look at it the other day, and picked out rooms, and decided furniture situation, and I am SO EXCITED! I need it soo bad. I have the biggest room in our house (p.s. thanks chicas!) and I can't wait to decorate it cute.(given that i have MONEY). I am starting to feel independent. Well, I have lived on my own for two years, but it is starting to sink in that I probably won't be going back home. No more summers or breaks in saginaw. I wonder if my family even misses me? (Especially my sister) I think they are starting (or maybe are already) used to the fact that I am not there and not coming back. I was scheduling for my classes and for spring semester next year it said SENIOR. (My 20th birthday is a month from tomorrow. . . I want house stufF!) Anyway, that seriously freaked me out. That means getting internships and real jobs. I HAVE TO GET A REAL JOB. Why can't we just be in college forever? I am jealous of all those business students who already have sweet jobs lined up and shit...grr why can't i be a sweet rich kid with connections? (yeah thats a MONEY issue) If you can't tell I'm kind of bitter about money. Not that I don't have it; or maybe it is? Either way, I don't. Or maybe those kids just try really hard. But I try really hard too. Maybe I just don't try hard enough.
I'm doing really good in all my classes though. I have a 4.0 in every single class. Although after finals, I am not sure what will happen. But I am kicking ass in accounting, the class that was the most scary, i am doing the best in. I am really proud of that. Econ, I failed the first exam, and now I have a 4.0. I am done with CSE for the semester. ISS and SPN are both 4.0. Looks like dean's list once again.
My best friend Beth is coming to this school next year. We looked at apartments today. I am excited for her to be on her own. I am excited to kind of be branching out of the friends that I know here. Even though she's my friend from home, it will be good to have someone else to hang out with, and possibly live with during SENIOR year. (thats crazy)
My love life is amazing. I am so in love with Jim. We (for the most part, besides fights about taking down lofts and such) get along and click so well. I still feel like I get that feeling I got when we first met. The summer will be sad because we won't be spending that much time together, but honestly, I would do anything for that boy, and we can make it through that. Next year is going to be amazing, we will both have our own rooms, and he can cook for me in my very own house. . So excited for that. Things are so good, I don't want anything to change.
So that is me, for the most part, and my life in short in the past few weeks. Long enough. Peace.
I found a place to live for the summer. I'm living with Erin, Jamie, and Jessica from the cafe. Its an apartment in Capstone, which is pretty cheap, and nice. I'm paying 195 a month. I am taking 2 summer classes. I still need to find a job. I am getting so fucking frustrated with the job situation. I have applied at so many places, had 3 interviews and still nothing. I am considering going to the outback in lansing to apply tomorrow. I have put it off for this long, but i am stuck. I need to make money in order to pay for my apartment. I need to save money for my house. I hate money. Every thing always deals with fucking money. I have none. I need some. That's all I know. I wish I could do all the things that I wanted to do. I wish I could be fortunate like some people. I wish I had more time to work, so I could pay for all the things that I wanted to do. The last weeks of school are so stressful, and I just need to relax for once. But grr. Then NO MONEY.
I'm really excited for the house for next year. We went to go look at it the other day, and picked out rooms, and decided furniture situation, and I am SO EXCITED! I need it soo bad. I have the biggest room in our house (p.s. thanks chicas!) and I can't wait to decorate it cute.(given that i have MONEY). I am starting to feel independent. Well, I have lived on my own for two years, but it is starting to sink in that I probably won't be going back home. No more summers or breaks in saginaw. I wonder if my family even misses me? (Especially my sister) I think they are starting (or maybe are already) used to the fact that I am not there and not coming back. I was scheduling for my classes and for spring semester next year it said SENIOR. (My 20th birthday is a month from tomorrow. . . I want house stufF!) Anyway, that seriously freaked me out. That means getting internships and real jobs. I HAVE TO GET A REAL JOB. Why can't we just be in college forever? I am jealous of all those business students who already have sweet jobs lined up and shit...grr why can't i be a sweet rich kid with connections? (yeah thats a MONEY issue) If you can't tell I'm kind of bitter about money. Not that I don't have it; or maybe it is? Either way, I don't. Or maybe those kids just try really hard. But I try really hard too. Maybe I just don't try hard enough.
I'm doing really good in all my classes though. I have a 4.0 in every single class. Although after finals, I am not sure what will happen. But I am kicking ass in accounting, the class that was the most scary, i am doing the best in. I am really proud of that. Econ, I failed the first exam, and now I have a 4.0. I am done with CSE for the semester. ISS and SPN are both 4.0. Looks like dean's list once again.
My best friend Beth is coming to this school next year. We looked at apartments today. I am excited for her to be on her own. I am excited to kind of be branching out of the friends that I know here. Even though she's my friend from home, it will be good to have someone else to hang out with, and possibly live with during SENIOR year. (thats crazy)
My love life is amazing. I am so in love with Jim. We (for the most part, besides fights about taking down lofts and such) get along and click so well. I still feel like I get that feeling I got when we first met. The summer will be sad because we won't be spending that much time together, but honestly, I would do anything for that boy, and we can make it through that. Next year is going to be amazing, we will both have our own rooms, and he can cook for me in my very own house. . So excited for that. Things are so good, I don't want anything to change.
So that is me, for the most part, and my life in short in the past few weeks. Long enough. Peace.