this is crazy stuff!!!

[sparten25]

hey guys whats up......not too much here...I’m feeling kinda weird...i guess it's just the fact that my normal life is about to change big time!!!...lol...I donno how most people feel before heading off to college...I mean...I’m not worried about it...but college, I donno, I just feel old that’s all..lol...it's also funny because I see how far I’ve come as a person over these past few years...today was one of those days...today started off just normal, nothing to big or out of the ordinary. I got board and got on-line to see if there was anyone to talk to...sure enough Alisha was on....she was having a really bad day...and we've been getting along, so I invited her to come with us to go bowling...which was fun...we went bowling where I shot a 215, 223, and a 160 (bad game)....but I guess I had an ok day for bowling...anywayz, after bowling; Tim, Kelsey, Alisha and Myself went out to dinner and Sharies.....yeah that was cool...we hung out and talked for a little bit...now, as a side story, over the past month or so, Alisha and I we're talking about getting back together. We’ve both pretty much grown up and sorted out what we needed to. in-short, we we're what we wanted each other to be when we we're dating, which was cool...but when we came to this conclusion, she was still dating a guy named Steven, so I just said, "hey your already with this guy, have fun with it and enjoy it"...anywayz, a few weeks later they broke up...but Alisha wasn't really ready to date, and we both pretty much said that we should hang out with each other as friends once or twice before we decide to make anything of this...anywayz, today I guess should of been one of those days, but then she got a call from J.R....ok in short...Alisha and J.R. dated once before, yeah I didn't take it too well the first time....but a month or two later they broke up because Alisha's parents didn't like J.R.....for one weird reason or another, he's a great guy....but today we stopped by J.R.'s house, and I saw this a mile away...as soon as J.R. and Alisha saw each other...it was as if they never broke up...part of me, was happy, part of me sick, and I was flooded with more emotions at that moment the Shakespeare could Wright in a Soliloquize...so J.R. and Alisha went off to talk about it...I talked to J.R.'s dad for a little bit, then I stepped outside to think about everything really quick...then it hit me...I’ve gotta be the bigger person here...I made a promise to Alisha when we first started going out on September 21st in 2003....that I just want her to be happy...weather I liked it or not...and if it's J.R. she wants...well then DAMN IT!!! It’s what she's gonna get!!! J.R. is one of my best friends and Alisha is someone I owe a promise too. So instead of being all mad about them dating...I’m ACTULLY helping them out. Just goes to show how much I really do love my friends......and now that they have found each other....that only leaves one more question....when will I find my other????....I hope she gets her soon.....we'll I’m going to bed....g'night

"I'll be just fine
Pretending I’m not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I’ve got"