Well God Damn
Why is it that I can never have a good day? One that starts off that way always ends badly... So I pretty much just give up. From now on I go to work, go to class, come home and maybe eat dinner, do my homework, and go to bed. Minimal contact is best I think. There's no conflict that way. I thought living with guys would make my life drama free and I was sooooooooo wrong! I can't deal with this shit right now. There's too much else going on in my life and I don't need it nor can I handle it. So yeah, this is my pretty much screw the world post. I have to resign myself to the fact that I can't make everyone happy because it makes me miserable which pisses others off if I'm miserable.
I really don't know what I'm saying. I'm just so frustrated and upset right now at everyone and everything. I got a raise at work today and was super happy about it and then I went to a baby shower for a coworker and saw some old friends, and that was great. Then I come home to this shit and end up in the middle of it when I didn't intend to be. Because that's what I am, I'm the listener. I'll smile and nod with a few comments here or there. It's a very unfulfilling life, but what can I do. My boss and I had a chat today and I told him I was handling my stress better, but am I really? I don't feel it right now.
And really, what's the point? It's all he said/she said. It pisses people off at each other for no reason because no one can prove anything, right? And it's obvious who's going to take who's side and I'm pretty much out cold. But whatever. Getting out of here this weekend is a good idea, a great idea, before I kill someone, and I think you know who that would be.
I really don't know what I'm saying. I'm just so frustrated and upset right now at everyone and everything. I got a raise at work today and was super happy about it and then I went to a baby shower for a coworker and saw some old friends, and that was great. Then I come home to this shit and end up in the middle of it when I didn't intend to be. Because that's what I am, I'm the listener. I'll smile and nod with a few comments here or there. It's a very unfulfilling life, but what can I do. My boss and I had a chat today and I told him I was handling my stress better, but am I really? I don't feel it right now.
And really, what's the point? It's all he said/she said. It pisses people off at each other for no reason because no one can prove anything, right? And it's obvious who's going to take who's side and I'm pretty much out cold. But whatever. Getting out of here this weekend is a good idea, a great idea, before I kill someone, and I think you know who that would be.