friends, foes, and other complicated situations
I've been thinking a lot lately about how much i've changed over the past 2 or 3 years of my life. Looking back to freshman year of high school, even sophomore year, i was an incredibly different person. Now, we all know that the high school/college years are the times when you change the most, but it seemed like with me, the change doubled. i went from a crazy, naive child, to a very serious person with brutal honesty that could kill bambi. not by coincidence my blood pressure has since raised. go figure.
I've also been through a lot of friends. some of them i still have, others are long gone never to be spoken to again. i don't blame them. i'm not an easy person to be around. i've made a list of the more memorable ones during my time of change:
Casey McDanel: He was different from most of my friends in that i didn't really gain his friendship until senior year of high school. he was a breath of fresh air from the usual crowd, and i liked him. i had the real privilage of seeing him grow to be one of our finest actors at RRHS. he continues to have success at UT and we talk often. i think what keeps us going is the fact that we have mutual respect for each other, both as theatre students, and as people. more important is the fact that we are able to distinguish the difference between the two, or else lone star would have been a catastrophe. i hope to maintain his friendship for a long time.
Brett Beeler: one of my best friends ever. we met in spanish freshman year, but it wasn't until sophomore year that we began to become inseperable. his family was poor, so we always hung out at my house, which was fine. he would tell me about his family situation, and it never made me think any less of him. i think that's what really bonded us. i admire him a lot. he's one of the smartest people i know. the day he left for california to go to college was one of the hardest days of my life. i love him very much. sometimes it blows my mind to think that he's my best friend.
Chris Reyes: He and I really got to know each other sophomore year, and we've been good friends since. now that we're off at college we don't speak as much, but i know that whenever we see each other it'll be just like old times.
Sarah Smith: Another person i don't talk to as much since i left RR. i miss that. i miss her. she and i were great friends my junior year, but kind of tapered off my senior year. over the summer, we built back up a little bit, and i asked myself why i didn't hang with her more. she's very intelligent, and we think alike.
Joey Mayorga: one of the coolest kids i've ever known. ever. He was another person i didn't really get to knowing until late in high school. i just cherish the time we did get to spend together.
Ashley Nichols: i knew her for three years in high school until we actually started hanging out. She is someone who i could rely on to tell anything, and i still feel the same way now, although i don't feel like she feels the same way back. we're up at UNT together, and that's nice, but we don't see each other much, which is fine, but sometimes i'd wish she'd hit me up every once in a while. it's hard to always be the one to make the effort.
Caitlin Garner: "love/hate" wouldn't exactly do justice to the kind of relationship we had. i'm suprised we didn't kill each other. we don't talk anymore.
Stephanie Locklear: the first girl i thought i was in love with. she was (and still is i imagine) an amazing person. very insightful. i really looked up to her. i'm sad that we don't speak anymore, but i know if we did, it wouldn't be the same. we stopped talking after a fight and have since then made amends with each other, but nothing significant.
Tyler Petrisin: i've been friends with this kid since i was 4. he's still in WV, and we still talk. now that's friendship.
Alex Hambrick: we were friends i suppose until i realized he's a racist, self centered, cynical asshole.
A.J. Calloway: one of the funniest people i've ever met. i'm sad he was only a sophomore when i graduated. he and i always have fun together.
Kyle Walker: it wasn't until Nicholas Nickleby when our relationship picked up, but i'm glad for the time we spent together. i was privileged to have worked with him in Lone Star, and to have been a part of his life, even though we'd actually known each other for 4 years.
Roxanne Palermo: she and i were always friends, but things took a turn for the worst after we dated. when we broke up in july of 2004, things got pretty ugly for a while. it wasn't until last spring when we started to make amends with each other. she's now a great friend of mine.
Alyson Erikson: i've known her for a long time, and things also took a turn for the worst after we dated. i've since then learned to forgive her for how we split....which was totally juvinile. i don't speak to her anymore, and i really don't care.
obviously i can't include everyone because that would take forever. but realize that even if you're not on this list, i still think about you. you'd be suprised.
I've also been through a lot of friends. some of them i still have, others are long gone never to be spoken to again. i don't blame them. i'm not an easy person to be around. i've made a list of the more memorable ones during my time of change:
Casey McDanel: He was different from most of my friends in that i didn't really gain his friendship until senior year of high school. he was a breath of fresh air from the usual crowd, and i liked him. i had the real privilage of seeing him grow to be one of our finest actors at RRHS. he continues to have success at UT and we talk often. i think what keeps us going is the fact that we have mutual respect for each other, both as theatre students, and as people. more important is the fact that we are able to distinguish the difference between the two, or else lone star would have been a catastrophe. i hope to maintain his friendship for a long time.
Brett Beeler: one of my best friends ever. we met in spanish freshman year, but it wasn't until sophomore year that we began to become inseperable. his family was poor, so we always hung out at my house, which was fine. he would tell me about his family situation, and it never made me think any less of him. i think that's what really bonded us. i admire him a lot. he's one of the smartest people i know. the day he left for california to go to college was one of the hardest days of my life. i love him very much. sometimes it blows my mind to think that he's my best friend.
Chris Reyes: He and I really got to know each other sophomore year, and we've been good friends since. now that we're off at college we don't speak as much, but i know that whenever we see each other it'll be just like old times.
Sarah Smith: Another person i don't talk to as much since i left RR. i miss that. i miss her. she and i were great friends my junior year, but kind of tapered off my senior year. over the summer, we built back up a little bit, and i asked myself why i didn't hang with her more. she's very intelligent, and we think alike.
Joey Mayorga: one of the coolest kids i've ever known. ever. He was another person i didn't really get to knowing until late in high school. i just cherish the time we did get to spend together.
Ashley Nichols: i knew her for three years in high school until we actually started hanging out. She is someone who i could rely on to tell anything, and i still feel the same way now, although i don't feel like she feels the same way back. we're up at UNT together, and that's nice, but we don't see each other much, which is fine, but sometimes i'd wish she'd hit me up every once in a while. it's hard to always be the one to make the effort.
Caitlin Garner: "love/hate" wouldn't exactly do justice to the kind of relationship we had. i'm suprised we didn't kill each other. we don't talk anymore.
Stephanie Locklear: the first girl i thought i was in love with. she was (and still is i imagine) an amazing person. very insightful. i really looked up to her. i'm sad that we don't speak anymore, but i know if we did, it wouldn't be the same. we stopped talking after a fight and have since then made amends with each other, but nothing significant.
Tyler Petrisin: i've been friends with this kid since i was 4. he's still in WV, and we still talk. now that's friendship.
Alex Hambrick: we were friends i suppose until i realized he's a racist, self centered, cynical asshole.
A.J. Calloway: one of the funniest people i've ever met. i'm sad he was only a sophomore when i graduated. he and i always have fun together.
Kyle Walker: it wasn't until Nicholas Nickleby when our relationship picked up, but i'm glad for the time we spent together. i was privileged to have worked with him in Lone Star, and to have been a part of his life, even though we'd actually known each other for 4 years.
Roxanne Palermo: she and i were always friends, but things took a turn for the worst after we dated. when we broke up in july of 2004, things got pretty ugly for a while. it wasn't until last spring when we started to make amends with each other. she's now a great friend of mine.
Alyson Erikson: i've known her for a long time, and things also took a turn for the worst after we dated. i've since then learned to forgive her for how we split....which was totally juvinile. i don't speak to her anymore, and i really don't care.
obviously i can't include everyone because that would take forever. but realize that even if you're not on this list, i still think about you. you'd be suprised.