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spring break has been good to me.
well, sort of.
Although it's gone quickly, a little to quick for my taste, somehow a vast amount of knowledge and realization has come attached. I've been doing a lot of yard work with Jeremy to our lake house. I'm sore in places i didn't know had muscles.
I went into Round Rock, stayed with Casey, saw Joey and Roxanne. That was all. In 7 months I've really lost a lot of relationships, ones which I kind of wanted to keep up. Unfortunately, I feel as if I'm the only one who wanted them. I talk to some people now and I feel like I'm excess weight that's a burden to them. Others I feel don't really care about me one way or another. It's not a good feeling. Sure, I have my friends here at UNT, and I have my now few friends from RR, but I realized the reason for my melancholy attitude towards some people was that for a while I was unwilling to accept that people change, and that they come and go. They form new groups, and they form new things to do. I used to not be ok with that, but now I'm just trying to move on and treasure the times we had, and not look to the past so much.
You had a good run, rootbeer.
p.s.-blake, i haven't forgotten you. sorry i didn't get to see you when i was in rr. i'll call you next time i'm in, and i know i'll be coming in to see one act.
well, sort of.
Although it's gone quickly, a little to quick for my taste, somehow a vast amount of knowledge and realization has come attached. I've been doing a lot of yard work with Jeremy to our lake house. I'm sore in places i didn't know had muscles.
I went into Round Rock, stayed with Casey, saw Joey and Roxanne. That was all. In 7 months I've really lost a lot of relationships, ones which I kind of wanted to keep up. Unfortunately, I feel as if I'm the only one who wanted them. I talk to some people now and I feel like I'm excess weight that's a burden to them. Others I feel don't really care about me one way or another. It's not a good feeling. Sure, I have my friends here at UNT, and I have my now few friends from RR, but I realized the reason for my melancholy attitude towards some people was that for a while I was unwilling to accept that people change, and that they come and go. They form new groups, and they form new things to do. I used to not be ok with that, but now I'm just trying to move on and treasure the times we had, and not look to the past so much.
You had a good run, rootbeer.
p.s.-blake, i haven't forgotten you. sorry i didn't get to see you when i was in rr. i'll call you next time i'm in, and i know i'll be coming in to see one act.