Title: The Fear You Won’t Fall [3/3] + Epilogue
Author: Sparrow
Fandom: Skippy
Characters: Kevin Jonas/Mike Carden (pairing), William Beckett, Joe Jonas, Nick Jonas, Andy ‘The Butcher’ Mrotek, Adam ‘Sisky’ T. Siska, Michael Guy Chislett, Denise Jonas and Paul Kevin Jonas Sr.
Rating: PG-13
Disclaimer: The title of the song is a song called The Fear You Won’t Fall by Joshua Radin. I do not own anything and don’t google yourself! Now I don’t claim to be a doctor or have any kind of medical training and I did the best I could with information provided and hunted down. Please in no way take what I wrote to be completely accurate.
Warnings: People breaking down emotionally, receiving news that is life changing, someone punching a mirror out and damaging their hand
Summary: After receiving life-changing news, Kevin Jonas has to find the strength to carry on with the love and support of his family.
Author's Notes: So my first foray into the Skippy fandom and I go with h/c, lol. I am such a mean author abusing Kevin and Mike like this. I just wanted to thank
daroos for the medical help and
akire_yta for the hand holding, listening to my flailing and help. She is an awesome cheerleader. :D Also, thank you to
laine89 for the wonderful beta!
Two weeks had passed since Mike’s dual lives had met. Kevin and Mike’s band had gotten along wonderfully, and he couldn’t be happier about that fact.
Idly rubbing his thigh, the throbbing making itself apparent, Mike couldn’t help but smile. He had donated marrow for Kevin a couple of days ago and they would be testing it to see if it was a match. In a couple of days, the rest of his band mates would go and donate their own marrow.
It had been devastating to learn from Kevin that no one in his family was a viable donor, and he could only hope one of Mike’s band was. If not, then they would be looking at the donor pool that the hospital had on file.
Now that Mike had come out, he could divide his time between his band putting the final touches on their album and Kevin. He knew William was going to be talking to Pete soon, hoping to put touring off right away so Mike could spend some time with Kevin. The label had waited this long; they could wait a little while longer.
He was brought out of his musings when Sisky came running at him down the hall of the recording studio and literally skidded to a stop in front, narrowly missing taking them both out.
“Hey, where’s the fire, Sisk?” Mike asked in a good mood for once.
“Mike, you got outted,” Sisky stated bluntly.
Mike felt the bottom of the world drop out from underneath him. “What?”
“Someone recorded you and Kevin leaving the hospital, sharing a kiss, and TMZ is airing it,” Sisky managed to get out in one breath. “An anonymous source identified you and Kevin.”
Quickly pulling out his cell phone, ignoring the multiple texts sent his way, he hit the contact button for Kevin and listened to it ring.
“Hello?”
“Kevin?” Mike asked desperately.
“Mike?” Kevin sounded liked he was waking up. “Hey.”
“Have you seen anything on the news recently?”
“Um, no.”
“Someone outted us and there’s a recording of us leaving the hospital,” Mike blurted out.
There was a shaky gasp on the other end. “Do- do they know why we were leaving the hospital?”
Mike shook his head. “I don’t think so, but we’re going to have to do damage control.”
“Shit,” Kevin breathed and it was the first time Mike heard Kevin actively swear about everything. “Okay. Are you going to be okay being outted like this?”
“No,” Mike said honestly. “But I don’t really have a choice anymore.” He gripped his phone tightly. “I’m not ashamed of you or anything. It’s just, I would’ve liked to come out on my own terms if I had too.”
“I know,” Kevin replied. “Hey, I love you.”
“Love you too,” Mike replied back and pressed a kiss into the mic.
The shut off and Mike breathed in deep and then out.
“Are we going to be paying for damage to the studio?” Sisky asked. It was a valid question, especially in Mike’s case; things did tend to get damaged if Mike was pissed. But he shook his head no. “Not right now.”
“We call Pete?” Sisky asked.
“We call Pete,” Mike agreed.
~~~
Jonas Brothers Blog
The Jonas Brothers are addressing the recent footage of our brother Kevin Jonas outside a hospital wearing a scarf on his head and kissing a man.
Kevin was recently diagnosed with leukemia.
He was filmed coming outside the hospital after treatment with his partner Mike Carden of The Academy Is... (We have permission to release his name).
We ask that everyone please respect the privacy and wishes of the family during this trying time.
Thank you.
~~~
The Academy Is... Blog
Hello Friends!
TAI are going a little bit serious during this blog post and we ask that you be patient with us. Recently, footage of our very own Mike Carden aka Santi was sent to TMZ of him and his very lovely boyfriend, Kevin Jonas, outside of a hospital, kissing! *gaspshockhorror*
Mike at this point would like to say he is bisexual, and yes, he realizes he just outted himself and to get over yourself if it offends you.
Now, Kevin Jonas was diagnosed with leukemia, a very nasty type of cancer, and we ask our lovely fans that you respect his and our privacy while he and Mike go through this very trying and difficult time.
Sincerely,
William, Mike, Adam, Butcher & Michael
~~~
After the blog announcements, the support from the fans of both the Jonas Brothers and The Academy Is... were touching and overwhelming to Kevin and Mike.
Gifts and stuffed animals were donated to various charities, while the more personal and touching items were kept.
Kevin was first diagnosed eight weeks ago, and the fever that accompanied his announcement at having cancer and being gay had finally died down. It was also the day Kevin would find out if his cancer was gone enough for the bone marrow donation.
Kevin and Mike lay in their shared bed together. A day of answers was waiting for them.
“I’m scared of what we find out today,” Kevin quietly admitted as he curled in close to Mike’s warm body.
“Me too,” Mike conceded and started to trace a pattern on Kevin’s arm. “But whatever happens, we get through it together, okay?”
“Okay,” Kevin accepted and shivered slightly against the touch.
~~~
Kevin was squeezing Mike’s hand with a strength that didn’t go with his current appearance. The chemotherapy had taken a toll on his body, and he was thinner, almost gaunt looking. His hair still had yet to grow back in fully, right now, the top of Kevin’s head was covered with a fine sheen of baby fuzz, but it was still kept covered with a scarf and hat.
His doctor opened his file and looked at Kevin with smiling eyes as the rest of the Jonas family waited with bated breath.
“I have some very good news, Kevin. The chemotherapy has destroyed all of the cancer cells.”
There were cries of joy and delight as a stunned Kevin was hugged and kissed.
Mike squeezed his hand in support.
Tears started to fall from Kevin’s eyes as he let out a breath he hadn’t realized he was holding. He pulled Mike to him and clung while he wept.
They were given a moment of privacy while Kevin’s parents herded everyone else to the side of the room as Mike showered Kevin’s face with kisses and affection.
The moment was ruined though when Frankie saw what they were doing and muttered an, “Ew! Kevin!”
Chuckling, Kevin wiped away his tears and reluctantly pulled away from Mike to look at the doctor once more. Taking a deep breath, he nodded at the man. “With the cancer cells gone, what are my options?”
“As you know, we were unable to find any donors in your family, which is rare,” the doctor admitted with a huff of annoyance. “But the good news is, with the recent generous donation from your friends, we found an almost perfect match within one of them.”
Kevin’s eyes got wide and he squeezed Mike’s hand. “Who is it?”
Scanning the folder in front of him, he tapped the name on the page as he read it aloud. “William Beckett.”
“What?” Kevin squeaked out while Mike moaned. “He’s going to be impossible to live with after this.”
~~~
It was hours later when they finally left the hospital and Mike took Kevin back to the house, he was spending the night anyways. The surgery for the bone marrow donation would be happening this Saturday.
But they still had to check with William if he was okay with donating the marrow, they didn’t doubt he would be, but Kevin wanted to ask anyways.
A quick text had been fired off to William’s phone for permission and barely thirty seconds later, Kevin’s phone was ringing with ‘William Beckett’ displayed on the screen.
Smiling, Kevin answered his phone. “Hey William.”
“Of course I’ll fucking do it!” William half yelled into the cell.
Wincing as he held the phone away from his ear, Kevin chuckled. “Good to hear.”
“I’m saving a life here! Gerard Way who?” William crowed, and Kevin could just imagine the long-limbed man doing some sort of dance. “When do you want my lovely marrow flowing through your bones?”
“The hospital set it up for this Saturday, they want us there for ten in the morning,” Kevin explained.
“I shall be there with bells on, Jonas.” Click.
Kevin then looked at Mike. “I hope you can live with me when I start spouting flowery prose of your handsome self.”
Mike laughed. “I’m sure I’ll be able to contain myself.” He pulled Kevin in for a kiss, which Kevin happily returned.
~~~
It was like coming out of a very deep sleep. Kevin smacked his lips a couple of times as he stared at the ceiling.
Where was he?
A beeping sound filtered through his ears and someone was squeezing his hand slightly. Turning his head, he blinked slowly and saw Mike holding his hand, smiling at him.
“Hey,” He said softly.
Someone else squeezed his other hand and he turned his head and looked up slightly. His mom had his other hand.
“Hey sweetie,” She smiled at him. His dad then popped into view, followed by Joe, Nick and Frankie.
“Hey Kevin,” Nick grinned at him.
“Hey,” Kevin smiled dopily. The drugs were still coursing through his system.
“I’m going to go grab a nurse,” Kevin Sr. said and disappeared.
Kevin blinked again and the room was dark and his family had disappeared. Frowning, he moved his head a little and saw Mike curled up in a chair next to the bed.
He blinked again and there was light in his room.
Licking his lips, he moved his head and saw Mike chatting to William who was sitting in a wheelchair.
“Mike?” Kevin rasped. Mike was at his side in an instant. “Hey you.”
“Water?”
A glass with a straw suddenly appeared in his line of vision. He sipped at the liquid slowly and then started to cough.
“Easy, easy,” Mike soothed and moved the water away from him. Breathing in deep, Kevin slowly became aware of the room.
“Mike,” Kevin said again and smiled at Mike.
Mike came in close and ran a hand down Kevin’s cheek. “Hey, the surgery went well. The doctor’s were making pleased noises.”
“William?”
William rolled into view. “I am here, eldest Jonas.”
“You okay?” Kevin asked and then yawned. It was hard to form coherent sentences.
“I am doing fine; my donation to your lovely body went swimmingly on my end,” William declared with a flourish.
Chuckling weakly, Kevin felt his eyes starting to close again. “Good.” And he drifted back off to sleep.
Kevin continued to drift in and out over the next day, and by the third day after his surgery, he was staying awake longer.
Soon, he was being discharged and told to go home and keep up with regular appointments.
It was all so bizarre, after all that; here he was, being told to live his life again.
Like the cancer didn’t even matter.
They wouldn’t find out if the donation took for another couple of weeks and then after that if the cancer would be in remission or not, but for now, Kevin planned to make out with his boyfriend on his bed.
He planned to do ordinary people things and exist in this bubble of KevinandMike without worrying what anybody else thought.
EPILOGUE
Kevin sat down in the kitchen chair hard, hands barely holding onto his cell phone as he shook slightly. That was how Mike found him a few minutes later.
“Kev?” Mike asked worriedly as he tugged the cell out of Kevin’s hands.
It had been a few weeks since the surgery and the bone marrow donation from William. Kevin’s hair had grown back in, although a slight shade lighter and if possible even curlier than before which frustrated Kevin to no end.
Every doctor appointment after the surgery had involved test after test to make sure Kevin was healing and the donation was not being rejected.
So far, the news had been good and the doctor’s hopeful.
Mike placed the cell on the kitchen table behind Kevin and started to rub Kevin’s shoulders in a soothing manner, thumbs stroking the collarbone.
Kevin gave off a choked sob and buried his face into Mike’s t-shirt and just clung.
“Oh babe,” Mike whispered fearing the worst and tugged Kevin in closer. “I’m sure we can try the chemo again. And I know William will be more than happy to given another donation.”
Kevin shook his head no and Mike stilled. “You don’t want the chemo again?”
“No,” Kevin said muffled against the fabric of Mike’s shirt and he looked up, eyes wet and suspiciously bright and happy?
Frowning, Mike looked at Kevin in confusion. “Babe?”
“My cancer is in remission.”
Stunned, Mike’s eyes slowly widened and then he started to whoop loudly. Tugging Kevin out of his chair, Mike spun Kevin around laughing in delight.
Laughing, Kevin clinged tighter to Mike as he was flung around the kitchen and then his body was pressed against the kitchen counter. Mike leaned in close against Kevin’s body and pressed his lips against Kevin’s.
“He mentioned about needing a further bone marrow transplant because what little marrow I have left needs the help,” Kevin explained in between kisses. “But Mike, I’m in remission!” Kevin’s eyes glowed with happiness.
Pulling back slightly, Mike ran his fingers through Kevin’s curls and smiled softly. “Love you, babe.”
Returning the smile, Kevin kissed Mike back and leaned his forehead against Mike’s shoulder. “Love you too.”
THE END.
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