I want to talk about a
picture I drew recently. I've already sent it to a lot of my friends and banged on about what it's actually about and my idea for the character, but I want to talk about what it meant and why.
I've always been one for drawing. Ever since I was five years old. If I saw something I like the look of, I'd trace it. As I got better I moved on to drawing from observation, and now I dabble in drawing from memory now and then.
Usually when I draw these days, it's because I find a really cool picture, or want to recreate an image I made in my head. Almost exclusively these days it's of unoriginal characters. Be they movie characters, comic book characters; whatever.
The other day though, I woke up and thought: "I want to draw" simple as that. Not because I want to fill up gaps in my sketch book, or have ones I want to redraw, but for the pure reason of creating something using a pencil and my imagination.
Specifically I wanted to draw a girl, since I'm not very good at it and rarely attempt going anywhere near anything female sketch wise. But on this day, it was that uncertainty, that creating something from nothing that gave me the buzz.
At first, she would just be a girl. Anyone just a girl, but then on my way to uni I started turning ideas over in my head. This girl's raisons d'etre. All of a sudden I was caught up in the momentum of my own imagination, something that has not happened for a very long time. That thrill of creating something that is purely yours just felt so uplifting. When I draw from observation, the drawing itself is rarely fun, I enjoy the colouring, finishing the product, making it presentable. But this time, the drawing itself was fun too, because I was creating as I went, my wrist dancing over the page - said Sparrowsabre like the artistic fag he is - to realise my thoughts.
I don't think that REALLY before this moment, I've ever truly felt "artistic." Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying that what I've done is great art by any means, nor if it be art at all, but I finally feel... I dunno... right, about it.
tl;dr version:
I drawed a girl, I liked it