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I feel like crap. I'm cramping, I'm hungry, I have no desire to eat anything, but I'm craving everything. For the first time in a long time, I have truly questioned why people want to be around me. I can't even clean the house today thats how useless I feel. However that isn't fair to have things lying around everywhere when Casey's been at work all day, and I've done nothing but deliver mail. I just spent the past 45 minutes trying to be pretty, and I end up with my hair up anyways. go me. I don't know whats wrong with me today, maybe its my period, maybe its the fact that I wrote a check for $300. $300 that I don't have. Well thats a lie, I have it, but I wish I didn't have to sign it away. I watched 3 episodes of sex & the city today, which was really quite enjoyable, and it didn't make me depressed. However, it is a part of my secret single behavior that I feel wicked indulging in seeing as that I'm not single. I realize that I'm making absolutely no sense whatsoever, but I just felt the need to write. stream of consciousness perhaps, or possibly just rambling. This can't be good though because I know the fact that I'm uber moody is going to end up causing a fight tonight. I don't want to fight. Maybe I do, I say I don't need drama and I truly don't like to fight but tonight I feel like fighting just to know that I can. I'm a bad person. I'm not okay with that but I don't do anything to change it either. I don't know where I should be going with my life, I know where I'm going with my life currently, and honestly I'm okay with that, but should I be?