Jul 10, 2005 15:10
I pierced my lip, and got some yummy peach cookies from travis thank you very much by the way. kimmys in bloomington wont be back until thursday. kinda bummed about that. i really want to hang out wiht jen anad rita but as time goes on the more it seems improbable. i miss them so much. i regret so much in my life and i think the inabliety to stay in touch with really good friends is the wrost. i have made a new vowe today... i am going to think of everything that i regret not doing and do it. evrything that i regret doing to make amends(sp?)to my self. and to everything i the future that i might regret not going to make sure that i do it. life is to short to let things slip through open fingurs. i know that today there is going to be a fight between me and my father regareding my new look. he will tell me to take it out and if i dont he will rip it out or i will be grounded for the rest of my mortel life but i will accept those consiqences and say no. if i take this out then it is stating that he is in total control of my life and that i have no option but to do what ever he says. i have noticed that sence he has been in total control my life it has taken i starteling turn doward and i refuse to go there again. as he put it i need to be completly reprogramed but what he means is that i need to keep my mouth shut and head down as he scerws up my life.
he has said some things in my life that i happen to agree with but i am almost seventeen and my father is still running my life.he tells me what i need and what i need to beleave in. i get my morals and ethics from him and my mom. he did a good job of raising me but i would like the opertunety(sp?) to make my own life and live it well without .....i have to finish later
bye