if i can only detach this feelings from myself
It saddens me. I don’t want to build this anger towards you. I shouldn’t. it shouldn’t. But the hell, I can’t help not feel so betrayed. But as much as I can, I’m really trying not to think of it as something like that. I don’t want to put or friendship to waste. You’ve been my closest friend since first day of the class in college. And you know that I’ve been a friend to you when you needed one. I even risk my own health just to help you runaway. L I don’t want to reiterate what I’ve done for you. All I wanted to say is that, you know how many sacrifices I’m willing to do just for you. And it just hurt. Really hurt now. I don’t know if I can still face you tomorrow. I don’t know how I’m going to talk to you. How to act as if it doesn’t hurt, as if nothing happen and as if it’s like just another normal day because it will never be normal. Well maybe it will but not now. At least not when the feelings are not yet right. damn it. This is difficult. L Really difficult.