It's peaceful at the crack of dawn...
So I suppose I haven't posted in awhile, been busy I guess. Also since my contract ended at work, I haven't really wanted to be on the computer, I pretty much stay away from it unless I'm checking mail or something. I guess spending four and a half months in front of one everyday will do that to you... and here I thought a nice cushiony government job would have been really cool. I was wrong. I decided I need alittle more in my life. Mind, it was nice, having 'purpose' even if only alittle and being able to walk away knowing I did a good job and was honestly and genuniely appreciated for it. I'd to it again, I'd even look for a permanent position, for now; until I had enough money for school or travelling or something. But, because I haven't been able to find anything yet (I've been out of work going on week three on Monday) I joined the Circus! I am now officially a Cirquador! Yes, which means, I work for Cirque de Soliel. I haven't started yet, but I expect it to be brilliant.
Ok, so since just that one paragraph took me almost two hours to write (I got distracted with other things) I'm going to talk about the sunset now. I haven't seen one properly in forever. The last time was our trip to Toronto, but I slept and only really saw it through groggy eyes. Normally, I wouldn't be seeing it at all, but it seems I'm having trouble sleeping lately and I'm not sure why. I think it's because I haven't been feeling well, so I've just been puttering around the house and not doing a whole lot, so my brain's not tired enough to sleep or just overly tired. Either way, it's happened a few times, but I just ignored it, thinking it's one of those nights, ya know? But last weekend, I went away to Robyn's mum's place, it's a farm and we had an awesome bon fire and stuff and drank..lots. I was EXHAUSTED like falling asleep outside exhausted. So when we went in, they put in a movie and I attempted to sleep. I didn't sleep through the whole thing, but most of it. After it was done, I heard them moving around, so I woke up and ended up being up ALL night.. it was ridiculous. So anyway, feeling shitty, but pulling myself together, Robyn and I made the drive back the next morning or afternoon as it was like noon when we left. We got back about 1:30 or so and my mum and dad came to pick me up in Aylmer, not mentioning that they still had errands they wanted to do. So zombie-like and looking exactly like death, they dragged me around. We got home, ate the take out we got, it stormed, mum and I went to watch a movie (it's like 7ish PM by this time) and I think I got like 20minutes in before totally passing out.. I mean, drool, incoherancy passed out. Mum woke me up about and hour or so later (yes, it only took me like an hour to fully pass out) and told me to go to bed, so I did and slept till like 11 the next day, it was wonderful. Anyway, Sunday I didn't do much, cleaned around the house and such, had a nice family dinner and was in bed at a decent hour to try to fix my sleep pattern. Monday I woke up feeling crappy, cold crappy. Stuffy head, sore muscles, the like, but Steff was moving into her new place and I promised I would be there to help out as much as I could. So anyway, dragging myself there after medicating, mugs full of tea and a box of donuts I was feeling better and ready to help. So off I go at like 3 and end up being there till about 10PM. I went home and went to bed, basically. Then, Tuesday, I woke up feeling even worse, except I was super groggy and my throat was super scratchy, so I sounded really stupid.. so all I did all day was watch Across the Universe and make a really cool pasta bake for dinner. Then heavily medicated myself before bed and slept like a baby. Wednesday, woke up feeling pretty much the same, so I puttered around, did abit of cleaning and watched random daytime TV, which I haven't seen in years.. heavily medicated myself once more and slept beautifully. Thursday, I was feeling alittle better but still under the weather, so I did my cleaning and laundry and then sat down with season two of s&tc and fresh beans and grapes and had myself a really nice afternoon. My mum got home from work and we had to run some errands, get last minute things for Steff's birthday. So I got myself ready and we went to do that at about 5:30 and didn't get back till 9:30PM. We were both still kinda awake so we watched the second half of the Grey's Anatomy season finale and parted and went to bed about 11 or so. I was tired but not tired enough to fall asleep, so I turned the TV on and got comfy. I put the sleep on for like 45minutes thinking that would be good, I didn't turn it off till about 1:30.. two and a half hours later. And then after that, I saw every hour.. until 8AM when I had to get up to start my busy day of party planning and getting last LAST minute things and going for birthday breakfast at Steff's. So it was pretty much a full night of no sleep, none. So yeah, I was tired but ok. So we had Steff's party last night, bit of drinking and stuff and by like 12ish I was falling asleep everywhere. But we didn't actually go to bed till about 3 or so. I slept for maybe 40 minutes or so before waking up, almost fully awake and not being able to fall back asleep, so at about 5AMish, I got out of bed and came over to the laptop, managing not to wake anyone until about 7:30AMish by my OCD cleaning.. -blush- even though I didn't sleep, I feel alright, shitty because I didn't sleep, but not zombie like, so I cleaned up the place, almost completely, saw the BEAUTIFUL sunrise, got dressed, did my hair/make-up for the day, made tea and got breakfast, then cleaned alittle more. :-P and it's now 8AM and only one person is up other than me and I don't think he really wants to be up.. kinda makes me depressed knowing it's such a nice day, still so early and I'm sitting in here, not being productive. If I had a car, I'd be gone, doing errands and stuff, it's the perfect time of day for it and I'm sure it would tire me out enough to sleep well tonight. Because I know if I go home in a few hours and sleep, I won't sleep properly and there'll have been no point. So I think on my way home, I'll stop at the market and get some vegetables or something and bake when I get home then take abit of a nap. It's just too nice a day to not do anything with it. It's really busy on the highway this morning, I'm surprised. It was busy at 4:30 AM though, when I first looked out. Kinda makes me want to have things to do that early or people to go see on weekends and stuff. Mind you, I would go see people, again, if I had a car. Taking the bus up to see Allie or Marge or even Liz is just too expensive.
Alright, well I can't remember if this had anything to do with what I originally wanted to update on, but I think it's a sufficant update none-the-less. So anyway, I'm off to join the circus! Oh wait, I already did that. ;-)