Still here....
So I guess some of you might be wondering why I don't post as often anymore. For any of you who've been fortunate enough to visit my household as of late, it won't come as a shock to you that I'm a little busy being a father more often now. Sadly, I'm actually slacking in that capacity as working a lot makes it hard to actually be around to do anything useful, and of course when I am around, I'm pretty tired from working a full day already. But in a month, that will be no excuse as Sparkette will be going back to work as well, so we're both going to be overwhelmed with work and household chores. Our little one is doing just fine and really is adjusting well now. We've finally got her to the point where she'll sleep in her bed instead of just her rocker now and she really only makes a fuss when she's hungry or needs to be changed, and occasionally when she's having a difficult time with gas or pooping. The grandmothers love to help out when they can but unfortunately they have to work all the time just like us, so they don't get as much time with their granddaughters as they or we would like. I know Sparkette is getting cabin fever and hates not seeing our friends as much as we used to, and I wish I could do more with the little one so she could go do stuff too. Part of what sucks for her though is I at least get to see people at the bar. Granted, I'm working, so I usually can't be terribly social, but I know it irritates her that I get to see people and she doesn't.
Sometimes it feels like everything's changing so fast. Some things are drifting away and it doesn't feel like they'll ever be right again. Other things may just be for the best in the long run. I just hope everyone's happy with the paths they're choosing. I see now more than ever that even when you are the center of attention, you can also still be all alone in a sea of people at the same time. It's like I'm slowly being disconnected from everything I used to know and I struggle to remember as if events and people were only dreams I imagined long ago, but I'm too awake now and the memories are dissolving. Maybe I'm just paranoid and pessimistic deep inside. I try to keep an optimistic face. Even Sparkette remarked that I always put a bright-side spin on things now, but it's only because I don't want her to worry. I just want everyone to be happy even at the expense of my own complacency. Most of the things I wish I could change I have no control over, so I just try to accept them and work around them.
Well, I've rambled enough to feel better and I'm really only posting to get this off my chest. I don't post much anymore cause I really have nothing to say. No words of wisdom, maybe the occasional funny ancedote here and there, but I just feel like I really don't have anything to say. Maybe someday I will.
Sparky
P.S. Allergies really suck hard right now by the way. But I love that the scientific term is actually superpollenating. Apparently that's why my nose hates global warming.
Sometimes it feels like everything's changing so fast. Some things are drifting away and it doesn't feel like they'll ever be right again. Other things may just be for the best in the long run. I just hope everyone's happy with the paths they're choosing. I see now more than ever that even when you are the center of attention, you can also still be all alone in a sea of people at the same time. It's like I'm slowly being disconnected from everything I used to know and I struggle to remember as if events and people were only dreams I imagined long ago, but I'm too awake now and the memories are dissolving. Maybe I'm just paranoid and pessimistic deep inside. I try to keep an optimistic face. Even Sparkette remarked that I always put a bright-side spin on things now, but it's only because I don't want her to worry. I just want everyone to be happy even at the expense of my own complacency. Most of the things I wish I could change I have no control over, so I just try to accept them and work around them.
Well, I've rambled enough to feel better and I'm really only posting to get this off my chest. I don't post much anymore cause I really have nothing to say. No words of wisdom, maybe the occasional funny ancedote here and there, but I just feel like I really don't have anything to say. Maybe someday I will.
Sparky
P.S. Allergies really suck hard right now by the way. But I love that the scientific term is actually superpollenating. Apparently that's why my nose hates global warming.