Ups and Downs
I'm going a mile-a-minute and I felt I needed to write a journal entry before there were too many thoughts to ever deal with. I really just want every thought I ever have recorded any time of day. Maybe I need a voice recorder or something. As far as brains go, my thinker seems to do better than my rememberer which renders the first slightly less efficient than might otherwise be.
Down: Social
No doubts about me as me, but I'm in a very different situation than I'm used to. I used to live with 30 of my friends. Now I live with 3 people. It is a big difference. I never had before and must discover now, the right way to hang out with people. It isn't like I haven't been making friends, I just don't know how to make them good friends. I don't know what to do when people aren't just there.
In addition there is something I wanted to call Not that feeling again! or "I think I'll have that drink now." The reasons for these strange titles are wholly unimportant. The sentiment is that, for all the progress I've made confidence-wise in social situations, I lack certain essential skills neccessary for moving past the types of social relationships I have now that I failed to develope at the time where it was possible.
Up: Media Lab
It was good to finally see my advisor, pick classes, and find that I had an office. Getting aquainted with the Media Lab will take some time, but I feel more comfortable there after touring around. I felt that I belonged. David is cool and I think we can work together.
Down: Slow Start
Past the initial excitement of the Media Lab, I realized that I had nothing to do. My office is empty and there is nothing with which to fill it. I'm not sure what I'm supposed to be doing or how we're going to figure that out. I'm worried about not being able to come up with interesting, original idea regarding things to work on. It seems like it is going to take a long time to get everything neccessary for group function up and running.
I have to form new relationships and adapt to a new way of viewing and doing things. I wonder if I wouldn't have been better off at the ETC. That is a culture I understand, could get off the ground running, and would thrive in.
Up: Redecoration
The area that my office is in is known as The Pond. That area was filled with generic computer terminals. It was dimly lit. An altogether depressing place. Already I have mentioned concerns about my office. David and I found a new piece of furniture for that space which made things slightly better. However, we and the people in the other offices around The Pond have been charged with clearing out the crap and coming up with a plan for a cool new radical restructuring. More is on the table than I might have imagined. It will be work, but it will be something, and then we might have neat, equipment filled space where interesting systems can be thrown together.
Extra: Systematic Organization
Like I mentioned above it is time to come up with new strange organizational mechanisms. I spend so much time inventing ways for me to be productive I rarely ever am. And while the bothers me, I so want to build the perfect environment for working and expressing myself. I want to capture all the neat idea I have and all the cool things I come across. A comprehensive tree of website I feel have any merit. Complete capture of daily thoughts relating to scheduling or to-do items, a way for these two areas where I already have some organization to get updated before I forget to. Capture of interesting ideas I have in all sorts of categories.
Down: Social
No doubts about me as me, but I'm in a very different situation than I'm used to. I used to live with 30 of my friends. Now I live with 3 people. It is a big difference. I never had before and must discover now, the right way to hang out with people. It isn't like I haven't been making friends, I just don't know how to make them good friends. I don't know what to do when people aren't just there.
In addition there is something I wanted to call Not that feeling again! or "I think I'll have that drink now." The reasons for these strange titles are wholly unimportant. The sentiment is that, for all the progress I've made confidence-wise in social situations, I lack certain essential skills neccessary for moving past the types of social relationships I have now that I failed to develope at the time where it was possible.
Up: Media Lab
It was good to finally see my advisor, pick classes, and find that I had an office. Getting aquainted with the Media Lab will take some time, but I feel more comfortable there after touring around. I felt that I belonged. David is cool and I think we can work together.
Down: Slow Start
Past the initial excitement of the Media Lab, I realized that I had nothing to do. My office is empty and there is nothing with which to fill it. I'm not sure what I'm supposed to be doing or how we're going to figure that out. I'm worried about not being able to come up with interesting, original idea regarding things to work on. It seems like it is going to take a long time to get everything neccessary for group function up and running.
I have to form new relationships and adapt to a new way of viewing and doing things. I wonder if I wouldn't have been better off at the ETC. That is a culture I understand, could get off the ground running, and would thrive in.
Up: Redecoration
The area that my office is in is known as The Pond. That area was filled with generic computer terminals. It was dimly lit. An altogether depressing place. Already I have mentioned concerns about my office. David and I found a new piece of furniture for that space which made things slightly better. However, we and the people in the other offices around The Pond have been charged with clearing out the crap and coming up with a plan for a cool new radical restructuring. More is on the table than I might have imagined. It will be work, but it will be something, and then we might have neat, equipment filled space where interesting systems can be thrown together.
Extra: Systematic Organization
Like I mentioned above it is time to come up with new strange organizational mechanisms. I spend so much time inventing ways for me to be productive I rarely ever am. And while the bothers me, I so want to build the perfect environment for working and expressing myself. I want to capture all the neat idea I have and all the cool things I come across. A comprehensive tree of website I feel have any merit. Complete capture of daily thoughts relating to scheduling or to-do items, a way for these two areas where I already have some organization to get updated before I forget to. Capture of interesting ideas I have in all sorts of categories.