depressivefullness
I love it when people ignore you. Not. But I guess he has every right to do it. But still. I always overestimate guys like that. Im not sure why though. I really hate that about me. me and kelcie walked to briqs today, and it only took us like 25 minutes. woohoo!!! go us!
but ugh, WHY THE HELL DID I HAVE STEVE TELL NIK??? im not sure what i was thinking last night. i guess i was just in that shitty of a mood. and i knew he liked chloe, but i didnt know he was going out with her, well thats what he told me. probably just to get me to leave him the fuck alone though. which is pathetic. because if a guy tells me to leave him alone, i will because i know im pissing them off then, but if they cant tell me that themselves, i will go on bugging the shit outta them.
i dont feel so bad, anne just told me she was like obsessed with him last year, and then he wasnt as hott as he is now. which makes me feel better, just a little.
but i still want to know what the fuck he meant by saying its a bad thing i like him. i mean yes i get that its not like i have a chance of going out with him right now, because of chloe, but relationships end all the time. but he had to have other reasons for saying that. i mean what the hell is wrong with me?
ok i need to chill...**deep breath**...ok im better now, i think. but in science, he only glanced at me like 2 times. well that i saw. and i was trying to pay attention to dustin, which sadly ispretty damn easy for me. (nothing implied by that)
people are majorly pissing me off lately. i just want to shoot some people sometimes. im not sure why though. its probably not a good thing. but i wish erika would talk to me, kelcie, and mandy more, and pay a little less attention to zach and emilee. because those are the only people she ever really talks to anymore. i just miss having nice talks with her about everything and yet nothing.
same with tony. but its just because hes moved away, and he has a new life down in iowa. but that will soon be over...again. i feel so bad for ihm because he is always moving away. just after hes starting to get close to his friends in iowa, he has to move again. but i wish i could live in florida. it would be all warm and fuzzy. and then i could live with him!, dont worry heidi if you read this, i dont like tony, i just miss him, he was one of my best friends, i take it back, he was my best friend at one point.
on friday i get to babysit for cute little corrick!!! lmao. hes the cutest little kid ever, i swear. well im out this is really long, so i might write more later. bye bye for now y'all. (i feel better after venting)