the light swirch

[sparksdontdie]

He said no. of course. this news comes a lil late on here but i havent been much in the mood to be online. cant say i deserved him to give us another chance because i didnt. i treated him like shit sometimes and i honestly dont know why. i honestly beleive we make the mistakes of our ex's and bring them to the next relationship. I'm use to assholes

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[tufflilscrapper]

I honestly think that there isn't an ex out there who doesn't think of their former lover at least once or twice a day, week, month..or lets go for the long stretch and say a year. I was very insecure about that with Darren. I figured he just forgot about me. But I know that isn't true no matter how deeply I want to believe. Personally, I thought Darren and I were going to get back together all up to I don't know...lets say a couple of days ago. I'm going to admit I contribute that to the stupid show I watched on MTV called the X factor. As retarded as that show is...it does prove a valid point...its just better to say goodbye. It doesn't matter the length of time...it doesn't change the fact that if you weren't right for eachother off the bat...you're not going to be right for eachother now. Eh, maybe that advise is taking it to another level because some relationships don't work out right off the bat...but you kind of get the gist, right? I mean...you did the song and dance a few times with Billy...and it never was right. There was always something lacking.

I guess in this huge ramble I want you to realize that in this free time, get to know yourself better and keep looking around. Shit, you're making some pretty sweet changes. Just make sure you're making them for yourself and not for him. Right now, I'm reteaching myself how to play the piano, looking for charity work, changed the direction and focus of my career, and (get this) I'm trying to figure out how to join an adult indoor soccer league. BOOYA. As long as I keep in mind...this isn't for him...this is ALL for me.