i will remember you...will you remember me?
I talked to Austin. And I told him that no matter what, I'm just going to trust him, because I will always care for him, and I trust him with my life.
Besides...we're not stopping seeing each other [bad grammar there]. So...clean slate...yes?
Maybe I've gone and screwed things up. Maybe I haven't. I don't know.
I don't seem to know much lately.
But this *grins* is what I do know:
Doesn't matter if Austin lied or not, he still cares for me, and he's always going to be there for me. Sure, he still has feelings for Abby, but he also has feelings for me. I can live with that.
I'm not stupid enough to do something like hurting myself. Temporarily or permanantly. Again, i do not have the physical or mental capability of doing something like that. I really am just talk [when it comes to suicide and stuff] but I can never really walk the walk. Which, in this case, is a very good thing
My family loves me. Even though they've made my life a living hell, they're trying. They're scared too.
I really do have real friends. And...that's really really good.
Skipping school is FUN.
I'm a goody two-shoes.
I should probably shut up and go to sleep in order to do well on the in-class essay for world history tomorrow [and i'm very sure about that]
one last thing...to make my day brighter...
i love reality tv shows because they crack me up. i love walking on the beach, getting sand between my toes. i love thinking about my prom, thinking of my wedding. i love thinking about my prom dress [something slinky]. i love thinking about my wedding dress [traditional and very classy and sophisticated]. i love thinking about my true love. i love hearing the rain fall on the roof. i love hearing the cars pass by in the middle of the night. i love the feeling you only get during long, warm summer nights. i love rembering being a little girl and trying to catch lightning bugs at night. i love doing stupid things. i love doing stupid things with other people. i love pigging out on food and not caring at all. i love my friends. i love austin. i love my family. but most of all, i love me.
i love smiling. and i could never, ever hurt myself. or hurt anyone else. all smiles here. g'night.
luv ya lots,
*~jessica~*
Besides...we're not stopping seeing each other [bad grammar there]. So...clean slate...yes?
Maybe I've gone and screwed things up. Maybe I haven't. I don't know.
I don't seem to know much lately.
But this *grins* is what I do know:
one last thing...to make my day brighter...
i love reality tv shows because they crack me up. i love walking on the beach, getting sand between my toes. i love thinking about my prom, thinking of my wedding. i love thinking about my prom dress [something slinky]. i love thinking about my wedding dress [traditional and very classy and sophisticated]. i love thinking about my true love. i love hearing the rain fall on the roof. i love hearing the cars pass by in the middle of the night. i love the feeling you only get during long, warm summer nights. i love rembering being a little girl and trying to catch lightning bugs at night. i love doing stupid things. i love doing stupid things with other people. i love pigging out on food and not caring at all. i love my friends. i love austin. i love my family. but most of all, i love me.
i love smiling. and i could never, ever hurt myself. or hurt anyone else. all smiles here. g'night.
luv ya lots,
*~jessica~*