Verbatim. Mostly. (a myspace xpost)

[sparklpoet]

So here I am. The fireflies are out tonight. So are the fools. I got sick of sitting in my apartment so I grabbed some essentials (pencil, paper, Ipod, keys, ID, cash) and headed for Foster Beach. It's a little past sunset. The sky is beautiful. 'Out Tonight' is playing on MyPod- how apropo

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[littletrowa]

You know... I have thought things like this before. So many times before. I think in a way it was like something I always wanted to do -- something I always saw myself as -- the girl who traveled all the time, lived in a tiny apartment in Spain somewhere where no one knew me and I started over; met everyone from scratch, tried to find my place in the world. At times I used to imagine seeing myself in Spain, living in a small apartment with a cat of my own. Who cares if I was single or not? It wouldn't matter.

I don't like Chicago. I drove across the country all by myself to run away from something I didn't want to live anymore; to start something new here. But I've slipped back into that clingy pointless lifestyle. And its so dirty here, and so expensive here. I totally, wholeheartedly agree with you. Oh, if only I were brave enough -- not afraid enough, ready to approach an adventure when I saw one. I'd go with you -- if I wasn't afraid. But I don't know what it is exactly that I'm afraid of.

I'm tired of living here. I'm tired of the same old thing. I need a change too. And I've been to Spain, I liked it there a lot, especially down towards the Mediterranean - white washed walls. And I'd love to go to India too! I also love Seattle, and Oregon. It's so pretty and there is no sales tax, and yet the city isn't far off, and there is mountains on one side of you and ocean on the other.

Maybe what you really need is a break? Like a small road trip or something? You could do it you know. I have friends who had this passion -- they wanted to go to Japan and they mulled over it and mulled over it and then finally they went and they were so happy. It was what they really wanted you know? Maybe you should give it a try. It wouldn't be so hard. And you wouldn't be so far away. As someone once told me -- you only live once, and life is short. Might as well live it up.