GAHHH- why i moved away from here to begin with
so today my sister had a luau for my birthday and we cooked out. my dad was there and apparently had been drinking most of the day. i got highlights a week ago..which you've seen my hair highlighted it looks the same as it does everytime i get it done.. and he kept telling me it looked grey and finally after i was like hey that's rude stop saying it..and he kept saying it i was like it's not grey it's blonde, dumb ass...and that was really rude of me..i mean i forgot he's my dad and that he would see it as very disrespectful for his daughter to call him a dumbass. and he got mad and told his fiance what i said and that he wanted to leave..and i immediately felt horrible bc i really didn't even mean for him to hear me..he was walking away and i thought i had muttered it under my breath but apparently not.. so anyway..i went and found him near his truck and apologized and asked him not to leave and told him that i didnt mean it and i would've said the same thing to one of my friends and whatever.. so he decided to stay..and then he started talking to my nieces about black people and how "beneath us they are" bc my niece was listening to some r&b, my nieces ages 11 and 7 were very offended.. then my niece was showing her friend a picture of her mixed autistic friend and my dad saw it and said she didnt need to hang out with people like that and that he looks stupid..my dad didnt know he was autistic and here it should be noted that my stepnephew has asperger's ..like really severely, which is a form of autism.. and then my dad was leaving to get more beer and my sister told him not to come back...so fun birthday..im glad my real birthday was awesome. anyway my dad sucks and when he does shit like this it's really easy to remember every terrible thing he's ever done..which is a lot.. i cant wait to live hours away from him again.