I'd like to see you undone...

Apr 21, 2006 03:45

it's the end of my freshman year of college. and I realize that I've been in denial that this is going to end, but today it became more than apparent. it's hot and muggy outside (a sure sign of summer), I'm in the midst of finals, and I've spent thousands of dollars on food because everyone wants to go out for "one last hoorah" before school is over. and tonight, when I was on my way to my "4529 angell" dorm friends dinner, I had this amazing urge to listen to dashboard confessional on repeat, and I just couldn't figure out why because with my musical tastes these days, I could not be further from dash. but I realize why-- good ol' chris carraba hasn't let me down. in "swiss army romance," the last part of the song in particular, he's managed to sum up a large amount of what I feel after living for seven months in alice crocker lloyd hall.

we're not twenty-one,
but the sooner we are,
the sooner the fun will begin
so get out your fake eyelashes
and fake IDs
& real disasters ensue

I'll be the first one to go on and on (and on) about all of the intellectual reasons why my freshman year was awesome, and most of you guys have heard all that a million times. but really, one of the biggest parts of college is social. basically, living in lloyd has kept me from my homework all semester. and we can talk all about that, but it's really not about homework. and I've had my share of social endeavors. I've made a few (albeit hilarious) mistakes, and I've had a great time. and my social scene this year has been pretty mainstream, sure, I participated in a lot of it, but a LOT was me observing other people's crazy ideas of preparing to "go out," "going out," and the aftermaths of said "outings."

and the rest I'm going to be pretty candid about. college IS about doing a lot of things that you wouldn't do whilst living at home, and taking chances and making mistakes (to borrow from the magic school bus, and all the nerdy advice that you hear everywhere), and doing things you would never expect to do, and maybe getting yourself into situations that you don't want (faking romance? perhaps.), and it's completely about growing up fast. we all know that famous quote, or at least I hear it all the time: "COLLEGE! NO PARENTS!" ...which is inevitably (and never quoted) followed by: ...let's go do something illegal! and ridiculous! I feel like it's all about testing the limits to the extreme. maybe it's just that everything is extreme freshman year. everything is dramatic, everything is binge and belligerant, everything is an all-nighter or procrastination. it's not natural, it shouldn't be that way, but it is. and I think it's a necessary experience, because the lesson has been learned and maybe next year (or the year after), the lesson can be put into practice.

but really, it's just amazing how I will never listen to this song again without thinking of my college dorm years friends and the year I've had, and the year I've witnessed.

it's cool to take these chances
It's cool to fake romances
& grow up fast
& grow up fast
& grow up fast
& grow up fast
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