Lots.
Just spent the weekend in New Mexico, celebrating Trista's graduation! I talked to family friends I haven't seen in over ten years. Paul got introduced around. We went to the Rio Grande Zoo & I got to tell Paul all sorts of anecdotes about my childhood. My kitty is old & in terrible health. My sister is all grown-up and making big choices. You know.
My birthday is coming up and I'm continuing last year's tradition (?) of giving myself a present (even if last year's present didn't work out so well). I'm torn between renting a studio at the Loft for six months (hooray writing!) or taking karate classes for six months (hooray physical activity!) HMMMMM. Opinions?
I'm leaving for Costa Rica in just under two weeks. I wish I hadn't been so oblivious to how soon this trip was approaching, because now I am panicked. Before the trip, I need to prepare & plant my garden, finish the Mad King Thomas postcard, finish the Mad King Thomas dance, and generally keep living my life in a productive way. All I really want to do is figure out a way to pack ultralight for the 10 days I'm there.
I'm about 10 pages from the end of Anathem and loving it, despite having some pretty serious questions about it at first. I read my first Neal Stephenson book when I stumbled over Snow Crash at my school library in sixth grade. That dude is pretty deeply linked to something in my brain. I have the modest dream/ambition of writing a book that might ever be compared favorably with one of his.
Anyway, I'm pretty tired. I have a lot of energy and a lot of ideas, but I've tangled myself in the web called "busy" and I'm trying to cut my way free. Keep thinking July will be a month of respite & progress. July! That is really too far from now. In December I was obsessed with the future freedom of May. Help! I'm trapped by my own stupid schedule! Wondering about how I spend my days & how to spend them more effectively. I feel like I'm on the verge of a huge change in my life and I can't figure out how to push it to happen. It is an immense weight, very stable, and I am torn between patience & zealousness. It's a leap of faith situation and I've never been good at those. I always feel like I'm on the verge of death when I have to reach across an unknown chasm. But that said, it's exciting! Invigorating. All that.
I just learned the word "manque", which seems relevant in so many ways, but I'll have to stop there because I'm out of time. I hope you enjoyed this chaotic & boring post! I'm posting despite that because I've built a huge backlog of posts that I've saved instead of publishing. And that's lame.