the one i will become will catch me.
i have so much to write about. it's crazy. i feel like i haven't written in forever. i've been making notes at work to remember to write about stuff, and then when i get home the post-it just kind of sits on the table, getting ignored.
i'm quite torn right now.
i really want to do the whole iowa in january thing, but it would be soooooo much easier to stay here and save money. it also would make a little more sense to stay and save moeny so that i can move in the summer and not have to worry so much about moeny stuff and paying for school and all.
do i really want to just take the easy route though? not really. for a couple reasons. one, i do that way too much. it seems like all i've ever done in my life is take the easy route. i'm sick of that. i want to do something that's going to be hard. two, the easy route is also the one that makes me stay here. i don't want to be here anymore. my dad is getting on my nerves so much lately. so is bruce at work. it's even worse than it was before. i'm really going crazy here, but it makes so much more sense to stay and save the money. i mean we're talking a few thousand dollars that i could save. is it me, or is it a little crazy to walk away from a few thousand dollars just to get away from people who annoy me?
ggggggggggrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. i wish that i could ask people for help more easily. i don't know exactly what i would ask for with this though. i also wish that i could verbally talk this through with wlery. actually, i wish that i could talk to her at all right now. i don't think that we've been able to talk for more that a few minutes at all this week. that seems super odd.
k, so i took a break from writing and watched american dreams, and i think that i have an idea.
see, my biggest problem is that i really will need to find some sort of roommate. that's hard to do from 1500 miles away... ok, i just got distracted looking up a bunch of stuff on line and i don't remember where i was going with that.
i'm getting tired and i need to go to bed. i may get to see hb tomorrow! yay! oh, and i have some packages all ready to be sent out, so if i can do my homeowrk tonight i can send 'em out tomorrow between classes!
hopefully i'll have a better place to write from about all of this soon.
i'm quite torn right now.
i really want to do the whole iowa in january thing, but it would be soooooo much easier to stay here and save money. it also would make a little more sense to stay and save moeny so that i can move in the summer and not have to worry so much about moeny stuff and paying for school and all.
do i really want to just take the easy route though? not really. for a couple reasons. one, i do that way too much. it seems like all i've ever done in my life is take the easy route. i'm sick of that. i want to do something that's going to be hard. two, the easy route is also the one that makes me stay here. i don't want to be here anymore. my dad is getting on my nerves so much lately. so is bruce at work. it's even worse than it was before. i'm really going crazy here, but it makes so much more sense to stay and save the money. i mean we're talking a few thousand dollars that i could save. is it me, or is it a little crazy to walk away from a few thousand dollars just to get away from people who annoy me?
ggggggggggrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. i wish that i could ask people for help more easily. i don't know exactly what i would ask for with this though. i also wish that i could verbally talk this through with wlery. actually, i wish that i could talk to her at all right now. i don't think that we've been able to talk for more that a few minutes at all this week. that seems super odd.
k, so i took a break from writing and watched american dreams, and i think that i have an idea.
see, my biggest problem is that i really will need to find some sort of roommate. that's hard to do from 1500 miles away... ok, i just got distracted looking up a bunch of stuff on line and i don't remember where i was going with that.
i'm getting tired and i need to go to bed. i may get to see hb tomorrow! yay! oh, and i have some packages all ready to be sent out, so if i can do my homeowrk tonight i can send 'em out tomorrow between classes!
hopefully i'll have a better place to write from about all of this soon.