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Well.... It's twenty till ten...
Waitin on my Hunnie to call me...
Lot of stuff on my mind, so I figured I'd update about it all..
Yesterday, I got into an argument with my mother, because of my online school stuff and because I didn't take the dog out when I got home.. she had only been inside for like a half hour, so WTF.. right? Well, anyway.. She then calls me crying because of my dad, and they got into it and he told her to get the fuck out, and then told me if I don't like it, I can go with her. Well, he apologized for that, but he still said he doesn't care what she does, he half expects her to just leave, and I would then have to make a decision on where it is I have to live.. with him or her.. Well, that's an easy one. Me and mom came into this together, and we're going to leave it together. That's just how it is. SO.. I got offered a place to stay with Tony, and that would be awesome.. 24-7 with him.. Although I think his dad was right when he said that would work all well until we got into a fight.. But since the whole scenario that's going on is happening, I think we're realizing the type of relationship that we DON'T want to have. So.. Yeah... I think that would work. ANYwho...
so today I was still bummed, and we didn't have school, which made things even worse because I didn't want to sit around here all day, cuz when I sit, I think.
So I went to Subway to meet Tony for lunch.. :) He got there before I did, and when I got there, he walked across the parking lot and handed me a half dozen red roses... That made me feel 100% better.. :) I then realized again, for like the 100th time in the past month, that I'm never EVER letting him get away from me.. lol.. I did cry in front of him, and that's something he's never seen before... But I couldn't help it.. I had these moments all day where I'd just sit for two seconds, and not do anything, and just start crying.. The last time I did that was when we broke up, and I hated that feeling then as much as I hate that feeling now.
I got paid today, as pitiful as my paycheck was, and I put my money in the bank. I then tried to go to the Race Trac to get gas, seeings how I still had to go to Flagler and I was sitting on E, and my card was rejected. Come to find out I was overdrawn and my money isn't going to go through until Midnight because of their bullshit holds. So that just added to my stress, cuz I was counting on that money, Dammit. So I made it to Flagler, and took Grandma her shirts, and she loaned me $20. As I was walking down A1A towards my truck, this green yukon blazer thing passed me, and this guy was haning out the window goin "Damn girl!!!" I just looked at him, then I heard "That's Taryn!! TARYN!!!!!!!" And some fruit cake moron was waving at me. It was Devin McKenna.. Bleh and BLEH!
I made it home, and I've been here ever since.. Talked to my Tony, and he's supposed to call now in 9 minutes, so I'm going to go...
I really hope things don't fall apart, cuz if they do, I don't know what's going to happen.. I know we'll at least be in Palm Coast until I graduate, and then if worse comes to worse, and Mom wants to go up home or something, depending on my job situation, I can either get an apartment with a couple roommates, or I can move in with Tony. Either way, it's going to be difficult. I hate this. My moms depressed and no matter how pissed off I get at her when she's bitching at me, I still love her.. and to see her hurt like this is killing me. I want to tell my dad where he can stick their marriage, but I can't, because it's not my place. So for now, I guess I just have to see how things go... It's killing me... I'm glad my baby's here for me... ILU boo!!!
Much love... XoXoX
Waitin on my Hunnie to call me...
Lot of stuff on my mind, so I figured I'd update about it all..
Yesterday, I got into an argument with my mother, because of my online school stuff and because I didn't take the dog out when I got home.. she had only been inside for like a half hour, so WTF.. right? Well, anyway.. She then calls me crying because of my dad, and they got into it and he told her to get the fuck out, and then told me if I don't like it, I can go with her. Well, he apologized for that, but he still said he doesn't care what she does, he half expects her to just leave, and I would then have to make a decision on where it is I have to live.. with him or her.. Well, that's an easy one. Me and mom came into this together, and we're going to leave it together. That's just how it is. SO.. I got offered a place to stay with Tony, and that would be awesome.. 24-7 with him.. Although I think his dad was right when he said that would work all well until we got into a fight.. But since the whole scenario that's going on is happening, I think we're realizing the type of relationship that we DON'T want to have. So.. Yeah... I think that would work. ANYwho...
so today I was still bummed, and we didn't have school, which made things even worse because I didn't want to sit around here all day, cuz when I sit, I think.
So I went to Subway to meet Tony for lunch.. :) He got there before I did, and when I got there, he walked across the parking lot and handed me a half dozen red roses... That made me feel 100% better.. :) I then realized again, for like the 100th time in the past month, that I'm never EVER letting him get away from me.. lol.. I did cry in front of him, and that's something he's never seen before... But I couldn't help it.. I had these moments all day where I'd just sit for two seconds, and not do anything, and just start crying.. The last time I did that was when we broke up, and I hated that feeling then as much as I hate that feeling now.
I got paid today, as pitiful as my paycheck was, and I put my money in the bank. I then tried to go to the Race Trac to get gas, seeings how I still had to go to Flagler and I was sitting on E, and my card was rejected. Come to find out I was overdrawn and my money isn't going to go through until Midnight because of their bullshit holds. So that just added to my stress, cuz I was counting on that money, Dammit. So I made it to Flagler, and took Grandma her shirts, and she loaned me $20. As I was walking down A1A towards my truck, this green yukon blazer thing passed me, and this guy was haning out the window goin "Damn girl!!!" I just looked at him, then I heard "That's Taryn!! TARYN!!!!!!!" And some fruit cake moron was waving at me. It was Devin McKenna.. Bleh and BLEH!
I made it home, and I've been here ever since.. Talked to my Tony, and he's supposed to call now in 9 minutes, so I'm going to go...
I really hope things don't fall apart, cuz if they do, I don't know what's going to happen.. I know we'll at least be in Palm Coast until I graduate, and then if worse comes to worse, and Mom wants to go up home or something, depending on my job situation, I can either get an apartment with a couple roommates, or I can move in with Tony. Either way, it's going to be difficult. I hate this. My moms depressed and no matter how pissed off I get at her when she's bitching at me, I still love her.. and to see her hurt like this is killing me. I want to tell my dad where he can stick their marriage, but I can't, because it's not my place. So for now, I guess I just have to see how things go... It's killing me... I'm glad my baby's here for me... ILU boo!!!
Much love... XoXoX