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I just thought everybody would like to know that I am utterly and completely fed up with everyones shit, and I'm not going to put up with anymore of it, for if I do, I will go absolutely fucking insane.
My brother left for Iraq this morning, surprise for me!! Knew he was leaving, but do you think he could have called here and talked to me and my sister before he left??? Nope. My dad's mom (Mom Mom) went up to see him, like her and I did before he left for Haiti, and she never said anything to any of us. Knowing that Mom couldn't go because she didn't have the money. What the fuck kind of family is this? My dad is about as temperamental as a god damn horse on pms, and it's not making my Mom to pleasant either. I am so over it.
My brother could die over there, and I didn't get a change to say goodbye.
Do you know how much that hurts??
On top of all that, Lena started with me today, and instead of getting into it with her, I just put up an away message, and left it be. Then she says "I hope you're not mad at me!" Whatever.
Works going okayy, it's just tiring. And is killing my legs. I have like joint problems or something. But heyy, I'm working. It gets my mind off of most things, though the only thing I can't stop thinking about is Tony.
And that's expected. That's what happens when you love someone. *smiles*
About a year and two months ago, we lost my dog Kasey. And now, to add to everything else that's going on, Nick is dieing too. Fun, eh? Yupp. He's old, so it's not like somebody killed him like they did Kasey, but I grew up with this dog. And now I'm getting ready to lose him on top of it.
Why can't everything just go good like it was a month ago?
It's been a month and a week for me and Tony. Yayy. I told him that the alotted time that we were broken up didn't equal to a week, so it doesn't count. Technically we were still together. We just didn't touch for a few days. lol. It makes me happy to know that I have him.
Kendra and Jamie are really the only two people I can actually talk with besides Tony. And it's really fucked up that all the friends I thought I had have completely disreguarded the fact that we've been through so much together. Why? What the fuck is going on? I don't understand.
Brandi's in the Army, and I never get to talk to her like I used to, and that's driving me crazy, cuz that's my girl.
Jake's in Delaware, and he's no fun to talk to anymore, cuz everythings about him getting in trouble and him trying to come down here for Spring Break nationals so he can go galavanting with Keith. Surprise Surprise.
Have fun guys.
If someone can explain to me why I'm dealing with all this, please do. Cuz I can't take it anymore.
My car still isn't fixed, and that's putting a lil hole in the whole me and Tony getting together and escaping all this bullshit deal.
Fucking Russians.
Ugh.
Okay. I'm going to go try to sort this out. Ha. This should be interesting.
I need a day on the beach. Wrapped in a blanket. That's all I need. Time to think, and figure out what's going on. It'd be nice to have some company... *clears*TONY*throat*
I love you hunnie....
And to those of you who took the time to read this, thank you. I love you too. lol.
My brother left for Iraq this morning, surprise for me!! Knew he was leaving, but do you think he could have called here and talked to me and my sister before he left??? Nope. My dad's mom (Mom Mom) went up to see him, like her and I did before he left for Haiti, and she never said anything to any of us. Knowing that Mom couldn't go because she didn't have the money. What the fuck kind of family is this? My dad is about as temperamental as a god damn horse on pms, and it's not making my Mom to pleasant either. I am so over it.
My brother could die over there, and I didn't get a change to say goodbye.
Do you know how much that hurts??
On top of all that, Lena started with me today, and instead of getting into it with her, I just put up an away message, and left it be. Then she says "I hope you're not mad at me!" Whatever.
Works going okayy, it's just tiring. And is killing my legs. I have like joint problems or something. But heyy, I'm working. It gets my mind off of most things, though the only thing I can't stop thinking about is Tony.
And that's expected. That's what happens when you love someone. *smiles*
About a year and two months ago, we lost my dog Kasey. And now, to add to everything else that's going on, Nick is dieing too. Fun, eh? Yupp. He's old, so it's not like somebody killed him like they did Kasey, but I grew up with this dog. And now I'm getting ready to lose him on top of it.
Why can't everything just go good like it was a month ago?
It's been a month and a week for me and Tony. Yayy. I told him that the alotted time that we were broken up didn't equal to a week, so it doesn't count. Technically we were still together. We just didn't touch for a few days. lol. It makes me happy to know that I have him.
Kendra and Jamie are really the only two people I can actually talk with besides Tony. And it's really fucked up that all the friends I thought I had have completely disreguarded the fact that we've been through so much together. Why? What the fuck is going on? I don't understand.
Brandi's in the Army, and I never get to talk to her like I used to, and that's driving me crazy, cuz that's my girl.
Jake's in Delaware, and he's no fun to talk to anymore, cuz everythings about him getting in trouble and him trying to come down here for Spring Break nationals so he can go galavanting with Keith. Surprise Surprise.
Have fun guys.
If someone can explain to me why I'm dealing with all this, please do. Cuz I can't take it anymore.
My car still isn't fixed, and that's putting a lil hole in the whole me and Tony getting together and escaping all this bullshit deal.
Fucking Russians.
Ugh.
Okay. I'm going to go try to sort this out. Ha. This should be interesting.
I need a day on the beach. Wrapped in a blanket. That's all I need. Time to think, and figure out what's going on. It'd be nice to have some company... *clears*TONY*throat*
I love you hunnie....
And to those of you who took the time to read this, thank you. I love you too. lol.