Nov 30, 2005 18:27
i suck at life.
i'm a bad girlfriend. i do don't anything nice for him. i'm not even nice to him. i don't say anything that makes him happy. do i even make him happy? i don't give him what he wants.
i'm not a good friend to anyone. i disappear for months.
i'm not going anywhere with school. i'm doing really bad this semester. i don't care. i don't study enough. and it's stuff i would need for med school. i've given up like everything...everything fun, to be premed. i'll hafta kiss away the rest of my life to be in med school. i really don't want that. obviously i don't, since i doubt it so much. but i honestly have no idea where else to go from here. and i spent so much time on it. college makes me miserable. i thought it was supposed to be fun.
i'm lonely.
i wish i had answers.