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I can't believe its already December, Christmas is right around the corner. No white christmas for me this year...again. I really miss the snow..The snows not the only thing i miss though.. I think I put snow+Memories together = what i miss..I think what i miss the most is stuff like Tackling the snowmen that were in her front yard, that usually were actually a block of ice...One time i lost my cell phone in it, and the snowman was lighting up blue... I miss playing basketball in the frozen park..ice skating...laughing at nick and ryan "saying god is talking" lol.....I miss horseback riding in the snow.... I miss having snowflakes on my eyelashes... I miss jumping in puddles... I miss driving to nicks house to see ryan and nick...and singing the whole way in brittanys car.... I miss sledding, and the one and only ride ive had on a snowmobile. I miss taking shyla out in the snow. i miss shyla period. I miss eating ice cream in the snow. I miss the way the lake looked frozen with all the crazy icefishers.. i miss the way the lake looked in a flurry.... i miss nicks camp.. I miss being safe....
I really miss my friends.... Im not handling it well....even when i try to hide it.. I know things aren't gunna be the same, but I'd be satisfied with just a few close friends...or even one bestfriend.... Someone to get a huge apartment with..and stuff...and to be my maid of honor one day.....
It makes me wonder, will things actually rekindle...or am i just looking into a empty snow globe.... It's a sad feeling.... It's hard to talk to the people i love, because i just get sadder... I miss late night talks... Art class... english... ... Library.....
I miss the person i use to be. I miss the way it felt to be with nick there... I miss ron,jeff...everyone.. I hate goodbyes... I miss my grandma's .....
Im gunna teach splash how to drive so he can pull a sleigh.. My parents might get a house there with horse property.... I wanna get a place for nick and I ..and hopefully two other people..
But how i miss the snow :0(
P.s
HotChocolate, Has lost all its meaning
I wanna come home now.... Someone take me home...
