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she says baby i can't help but be scared sometimes
the rains gonna wash it away i believe it
i don't know what's wrong with me lately.... im pretty sure i ... just died. sometimes people don't realize how the things they do and say affect others. oh well. get over it. you'll be fine. haha way for me to give myself a peptalk.
im about to leave. im making a 22 in english. the silence gets us no where way toofast. i can't concentrate. music consumes me sometimes. i just sit, and stare.. and it's weird. im a fake, im a bitch, and i don't care. im here, im sad, rip me to pieces and that will be better than feeling nothing at all. im numb to everything.. and i don't get it. im here but my head isn't im thinking of how it should really be.. where i wish i realy was, i live in a fantacy land where everything is really okay. i want to put you out of my head, i want to forget.. everyday is a reminder... and i wish you were dead. i live in silence i live in her shadow. i wish i could live in the light of the moon, and the stars... and not in the darkness... in the light of the past... in the nothingness. i want to be a better person, i want to fix everyone's problems but mine.. i want you to be happy.... i wish i could not worry you, and not do things that make you doubt me and the way i feel. i wish my insecurities wouldn't get in the way of everything... i wish i could forget everything... i wish i had time to devote to you... i think it's all my fault... i think you can never understand what you do for me. how i need you and this in my life. you make things better.. and keep them from getting worse.... i wish i wasn't stupid... i wish i didn't make you feel bad. i wish i was cool. this is enough. i've grown creepy.... i've grown into you... not that you are creepy... you've just become a part of me.... your name sewn in my heart.... keeps it all together and from falling apart. enough for now. im tired of this
the rains gonna wash it away i believe it
i don't know what's wrong with me lately.... im pretty sure i ... just died. sometimes people don't realize how the things they do and say affect others. oh well. get over it. you'll be fine. haha way for me to give myself a peptalk.
im about to leave. im making a 22 in english. the silence gets us no where way toofast. i can't concentrate. music consumes me sometimes. i just sit, and stare.. and it's weird. im a fake, im a bitch, and i don't care. im here, im sad, rip me to pieces and that will be better than feeling nothing at all. im numb to everything.. and i don't get it. im here but my head isn't im thinking of how it should really be.. where i wish i realy was, i live in a fantacy land where everything is really okay. i want to put you out of my head, i want to forget.. everyday is a reminder... and i wish you were dead. i live in silence i live in her shadow. i wish i could live in the light of the moon, and the stars... and not in the darkness... in the light of the past... in the nothingness. i want to be a better person, i want to fix everyone's problems but mine.. i want you to be happy.... i wish i could not worry you, and not do things that make you doubt me and the way i feel. i wish my insecurities wouldn't get in the way of everything... i wish i could forget everything... i wish i had time to devote to you... i think it's all my fault... i think you can never understand what you do for me. how i need you and this in my life. you make things better.. and keep them from getting worse.... i wish i wasn't stupid... i wish i didn't make you feel bad. i wish i was cool. this is enough. i've grown creepy.... i've grown into you... not that you are creepy... you've just become a part of me.... your name sewn in my heart.... keeps it all together and from falling apart. enough for now. im tired of this