orientation
college orientation was the past two days. and it really opened my eyes up. to the negatives of college though.
I know its gonna be hard, I hope I don't flunk out, and I hope I can manage my time well.
I'm gonna miss a lot of people, really really bad. and it just hit me. :(
there's 25,000 students at CSU. there's no possible way everyone can know everyone.
it just makes me wonder who's gonna be my friend, who are the people that are going to stick with me?
I met some people at orientation, but they don't live in my halls and they have different majors, so who knows if they will even talk to me.
it all hurts. i wanted college to be so much more fun than high school, and I dont know if it's going to be.
and he ....he doesn't care anymore. once I leave, or now even, he's forgot all about me. i just don't understand.
How could you go from claiming to really love a person, to being able to not talk to them for weeks? I mean, just nothing? it doesn't make any sense. I wonder if he's thinking about me. Doesn't at least something remind him of me?
How could he just...forget? forget about me like that. drop me like a hot potatoe. it hurts more than anything. I've had it happen to me before, all the guys I've dated have been stupid, and they all just hurt me. I don't want to trust guys anymore. I don't want to. But Ray is different. I actually loved him. Really Truly. I know it. and no matter how much he hurts me, I'll always care for him, and i'll never ever hate him or dislike him in any way.
I just can't stand it. I don't want to let him go, but he's holding me by a string, so confused, and I just want to break it off with him, I just want to text him and be like you know what WE'RE DONE. but every day, i wake up, hoping, hoping, praying, so hard that he'll text me, call me, anything to come back to me. he never said we were broken up, the last thing he said to me was that he wanted to be together.
To describe how I'm feeling about this whole situation is impossible, but I want it's tearing me apart. I went to orientation and every time I looked at another guy I only thought about Ray.
I'm not like any of his other girlfriends, I actually love him inside out, upside, tear that boy apart and I love every part of him. no joke. I just couldn't stop. I don't love him because he's the quarterback, or cause he's popular. love him for HIM.
but i want someone who shares the same feelings for me, and he used to.
but i don't know what has happened.
I know its gonna be hard, I hope I don't flunk out, and I hope I can manage my time well.
I'm gonna miss a lot of people, really really bad. and it just hit me. :(
there's 25,000 students at CSU. there's no possible way everyone can know everyone.
it just makes me wonder who's gonna be my friend, who are the people that are going to stick with me?
I met some people at orientation, but they don't live in my halls and they have different majors, so who knows if they will even talk to me.
it all hurts. i wanted college to be so much more fun than high school, and I dont know if it's going to be.
and he ....he doesn't care anymore. once I leave, or now even, he's forgot all about me. i just don't understand.
How could you go from claiming to really love a person, to being able to not talk to them for weeks? I mean, just nothing? it doesn't make any sense. I wonder if he's thinking about me. Doesn't at least something remind him of me?
How could he just...forget? forget about me like that. drop me like a hot potatoe. it hurts more than anything. I've had it happen to me before, all the guys I've dated have been stupid, and they all just hurt me. I don't want to trust guys anymore. I don't want to. But Ray is different. I actually loved him. Really Truly. I know it. and no matter how much he hurts me, I'll always care for him, and i'll never ever hate him or dislike him in any way.
I just can't stand it. I don't want to let him go, but he's holding me by a string, so confused, and I just want to break it off with him, I just want to text him and be like you know what WE'RE DONE. but every day, i wake up, hoping, hoping, praying, so hard that he'll text me, call me, anything to come back to me. he never said we were broken up, the last thing he said to me was that he wanted to be together.
To describe how I'm feeling about this whole situation is impossible, but I want it's tearing me apart. I went to orientation and every time I looked at another guy I only thought about Ray.
I'm not like any of his other girlfriends, I actually love him inside out, upside, tear that boy apart and I love every part of him. no joke. I just couldn't stop. I don't love him because he's the quarterback, or cause he's popular. love him for HIM.
but i want someone who shares the same feelings for me, and he used to.
but i don't know what has happened.