why do I even bother?
so I know I'm basically typing to no one, but that may just be why I'm writing. I don't want to sound emo, I really don't, and, fANYONE, ANYONE AT ALL, is reading this, I don't want them to get the wrong impression either,.but anyway, I just feel like no one is there. When I try to talk to someone, it just doesn't seem like they understand. either they just go "mmhmm" , "yeah", "so anyway" or they say some simple thing that doesn't make sense to me and move on. It's like I have no one. you know what? maybe it's me. Maybe I'm just being stupid. Either I can't figure out what people say to me, or I'm not hearing what I want to hear, so it's not good enough. I don't know. All I know is that I have no one to talk to. honestly, the majority of me is happier. WAY more happier than the past. I don't know, I just want to know if I can talk to anyone, and they can be trusted. It's like I can't even trust myself. Right now, I really REALLY wish I only had one more year in this place. but who knows? maybe I do. or even less than that, and maybe it's best. maybe I should be happy about it