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It's literally been ages since I have touched this thing and I feel that it's time for an update before I completely abandon recording my thoughts. This one is going to be a doosy, so find a comfortable chair. =)
Maybe I should start off by saying that I am a different Erin from the one you knew on my last update. I am growing up and I think that's huge. I'm finally taking control of my life and seeing that it heads in the direction I want it to. I am loving the United States and I want to visit them all. Old me would have been too nervous to make the move onto an airplane or semi-truck, not anymore. I am also growing up physically. I am getting contacts and working on becoming a woman. I'm almost twenty-two years old for goodness sakes. I am going from only being a full-time student to having FOUR jobs as well as going to school. These jobs aren't about me making a ton of money but about me fullfilling my need to create and LIVE.
Now, some of you may be wondering how I am emotionally. Three words: I am happy. I am so capable of being happy single and I'm glad for that. I can't be one of those people who always needs someone to like them in order to be happy. I have great friends and I am meeting amazing people, what is there to be upset about? I do have to say, though, that happiness reaches a new level when someone does care about you, be it in the same town or on the other side of the world. Just the act of knowing that someone, somewhere cares about what you're doing and WHO YOU ARE is amazing. It's life affirming in a way. Sort of like, "I turned out great." And it's even better when that person cares about you for the right reasons. I'd rather have someone love me because I'm me, than someone who has based the whole relationship on things that change.
Which brings me to my next point. Nick has said some things about relationships that I think are ingenious. Opposite personalities with similar interests is the perfect combination. I completely agree. As long as the fundamental beliefs are the same, it doesn't matter what else. I also think that if you care enough about a person, you should make it work. For example, let's say I dye my hair an outrageous color and it looks horrible, I want my boyfriend/husband to say "what is this, joke time? please dye your hair back!" Once you care about someone, you will do anything to make them happy and I think that's important. I would rather him be honest with me and risk hurting my feelings temporarily than for him to lose interest because he isn't attracted to someone with gross hair. And that train runs both ways.
Now onto what I've been doing: In february I had strep throat which caused by body to break out in hives for like a week, it was sort of cool. I starting hanging out with Deanna, who is an awesome girl. We went to see West Side Story and shopping. Musicals and shopping...is there anything better? I'm still doing Interior Design even though I almost had a nervous breakdown about it. I guess i'll stick with it because I still get SO inspired by random things that it's stupid for me to supress that. I am still owning people at word games and trivia. I just recently got back from Michigan, where I spent two weeks with Andrew, Nick, and Trista. Love them. After one week they wanted me to stay for another and after two weeks they now want me to move. Who knows? When Stephen goes away to college, the last place I want to be is here. I'm also working on my room, trying to finally get it finished. Like I said before, I'm going to have four jobs soon. That means I get to buy a day planner, smartphone, and business clothes and no one knows how elated I am about that! I've also got my own health insurance, finally.
I'm really excited about my life starting and I just have to say... whoever finally ends up with me, he is the luckiest. =)
P.S. My puppy continues to grow at an outrageous rate. He is probably 80 pounds now. He'll out-weigh me in a month.
Maybe I should start off by saying that I am a different Erin from the one you knew on my last update. I am growing up and I think that's huge. I'm finally taking control of my life and seeing that it heads in the direction I want it to. I am loving the United States and I want to visit them all. Old me would have been too nervous to make the move onto an airplane or semi-truck, not anymore. I am also growing up physically. I am getting contacts and working on becoming a woman. I'm almost twenty-two years old for goodness sakes. I am going from only being a full-time student to having FOUR jobs as well as going to school. These jobs aren't about me making a ton of money but about me fullfilling my need to create and LIVE.
Now, some of you may be wondering how I am emotionally. Three words: I am happy. I am so capable of being happy single and I'm glad for that. I can't be one of those people who always needs someone to like them in order to be happy. I have great friends and I am meeting amazing people, what is there to be upset about? I do have to say, though, that happiness reaches a new level when someone does care about you, be it in the same town or on the other side of the world. Just the act of knowing that someone, somewhere cares about what you're doing and WHO YOU ARE is amazing. It's life affirming in a way. Sort of like, "I turned out great." And it's even better when that person cares about you for the right reasons. I'd rather have someone love me because I'm me, than someone who has based the whole relationship on things that change.
Which brings me to my next point. Nick has said some things about relationships that I think are ingenious. Opposite personalities with similar interests is the perfect combination. I completely agree. As long as the fundamental beliefs are the same, it doesn't matter what else. I also think that if you care enough about a person, you should make it work. For example, let's say I dye my hair an outrageous color and it looks horrible, I want my boyfriend/husband to say "what is this, joke time? please dye your hair back!" Once you care about someone, you will do anything to make them happy and I think that's important. I would rather him be honest with me and risk hurting my feelings temporarily than for him to lose interest because he isn't attracted to someone with gross hair. And that train runs both ways.
Now onto what I've been doing: In february I had strep throat which caused by body to break out in hives for like a week, it was sort of cool. I starting hanging out with Deanna, who is an awesome girl. We went to see West Side Story and shopping. Musicals and shopping...is there anything better? I'm still doing Interior Design even though I almost had a nervous breakdown about it. I guess i'll stick with it because I still get SO inspired by random things that it's stupid for me to supress that. I am still owning people at word games and trivia. I just recently got back from Michigan, where I spent two weeks with Andrew, Nick, and Trista. Love them. After one week they wanted me to stay for another and after two weeks they now want me to move. Who knows? When Stephen goes away to college, the last place I want to be is here. I'm also working on my room, trying to finally get it finished. Like I said before, I'm going to have four jobs soon. That means I get to buy a day planner, smartphone, and business clothes and no one knows how elated I am about that! I've also got my own health insurance, finally.
I'm really excited about my life starting and I just have to say... whoever finally ends up with me, he is the luckiest. =)
P.S. My puppy continues to grow at an outrageous rate. He is probably 80 pounds now. He'll out-weigh me in a month.