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[sparklesisemo]

i've always felt like i've needed something new.

something refreshing.

with all of these new faces and people around me
i've felt that i've needed them.
i've needed to connect with them.
i've needed to find someone so like me
yet so different
to learn from
to live with
to love.

like everywhere i go there are so many opportunities to meet someone beautiful
someone who will complete me

every unfamiliar place i've been to
some familiar
i look at with a set of eyes that are longing
longing to be completed
longing for that one love that will set me free
but keep me close enough 
to feel secure.

everytime i step out my door
i look for you.

i see every male my age as an opportunity
an opportunity to experience, to live the kind of whirlwind, hopelessly in love romance i've always dreamed about.
i won't have to approach him
he'll approach me.

everyday
i walk outside wondering how i'll find you
hoping i won't have to.
hoping you'll find me.

there are so many sources available.
he could be the one in barnes and noble looking through the classic literature
he could be the one on myspace with the beautiful words and close friends
he could be the one in school sitting by himself because he's too shy to talk to anyone

he could be the one who goes through what i do everyday
searching, longing, praying 
except he's trying to find me.

i was going to say i don't look for you anymore
that i don't want to
i am complete
i am fulfilled
i am fine

but now i'm not so sure.

i'll probably still look for you in the grocery store, on the street, in the audience
but i don't think i'll find you if i keep looking and hoping and waiting.

you'll find me first

or at least i hope so.