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i should probably be in school now *cough* *cough* not really *cough*
i'm depressed
i don't do my homework
i wish my best friend lived here
he's in florida
i've known him for over two years
i've never told anyone that
it's easy to tell everything to strangers
he makes all of these songs
and i used to want them to be about me
even if they were sad
he'd freak out if he knew haha
i do ridiculous things to myself
i really think i am destroying myself slowly
really
not like physically or anything
i just have a terrible attitude
i am mentally incompetent
i honestly think i have severe psychological problems
3/4 of what i say is just complaining
i trust everyone
but i feel like i shouldn't
because of people like you
i don't want to fall in love
i don't want to feel complete
i don't want to be happy
i just want to be okay
or feel anything other than this
i'm a terrible girlfriend
i'm not going to meet my future husband in a bookstore
as much as i'd like to believe it
he isn't going to have blue eyes
because he's nonexistant
i want everything in my life to be like a movie
i'm serious
i'm terrible
we think we're all original
or no one feels the way we feel
like we're something special
but we're aren't
we're just repetitive
we're all the same
there's a bird outside
i'm not as religious anymore
i was the happiest when i was religious
i was the happiest when i had hope
i was the happiest when i was naive
i'm jaded
i'm living so dangerously
and it's scaring me
i ruin people like you by letting you ruin me
my moods change every second
so it really doesn't matter what i say today
i'll be fine tomorrow
it always happens like that
i'm a teenager
i'm moody
hormones
i'm not beautiful
who can say that about themselves?
i don't feel it
not right now
maybe tomorrow
i swear my self esteem never used to be this low
i'm the luckiest person in the world
i just need to create problems for myself
there's nothing wrong with my life
i'm just nuts
i don't need therapy or anything
at least i'm not keeping it bottled up
my mom said i'll be fine
she's right
i'm a mess
i think the best way to tell who the good people are
is saying scary nutso things like this
and seeing who is concerned
i don't want advice
i don't want you to try and change me
i can only change myself
you can try
it won't work
i want reassurance
i want to be acknowledged
i'm depressed
i don't do my homework
i wish my best friend lived here
he's in florida
i've known him for over two years
i've never told anyone that
it's easy to tell everything to strangers
he makes all of these songs
and i used to want them to be about me
even if they were sad
he'd freak out if he knew haha
i do ridiculous things to myself
i really think i am destroying myself slowly
really
not like physically or anything
i just have a terrible attitude
i am mentally incompetent
i honestly think i have severe psychological problems
3/4 of what i say is just complaining
i trust everyone
but i feel like i shouldn't
because of people like you
i don't want to fall in love
i don't want to feel complete
i don't want to be happy
i just want to be okay
or feel anything other than this
i'm a terrible girlfriend
i'm not going to meet my future husband in a bookstore
as much as i'd like to believe it
he isn't going to have blue eyes
because he's nonexistant
i want everything in my life to be like a movie
i'm serious
i'm terrible
we think we're all original
or no one feels the way we feel
like we're something special
but we're aren't
we're just repetitive
we're all the same
there's a bird outside
i'm not as religious anymore
i was the happiest when i was religious
i was the happiest when i had hope
i was the happiest when i was naive
i'm jaded
i'm living so dangerously
and it's scaring me
i ruin people like you by letting you ruin me
my moods change every second
so it really doesn't matter what i say today
i'll be fine tomorrow
it always happens like that
i'm a teenager
i'm moody
hormones
i'm not beautiful
who can say that about themselves?
i don't feel it
not right now
maybe tomorrow
i swear my self esteem never used to be this low
i'm the luckiest person in the world
i just need to create problems for myself
there's nothing wrong with my life
i'm just nuts
i don't need therapy or anything
at least i'm not keeping it bottled up
my mom said i'll be fine
she's right
i'm a mess
i think the best way to tell who the good people are
is saying scary nutso things like this
and seeing who is concerned
i don't want advice
i don't want you to try and change me
i can only change myself
you can try
it won't work
i want reassurance
i want to be acknowledged