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[sparklesisemo]

i feel pretty sick right now
and
pretty
overall
unhealthy.

i shouldn't complain.
but
who cares
i'm not perfect

horrible attitude
had it yesterday
have it today
i should get over it soon
there aren't any guarantees for tomorrow though

I
am
not
happy

I just thought you should know

it won't last forever
but at the moment
i'm not happy
and at the moment
I don't care about saying things i could regret
or thinking things i won't appreciate in the morning
because right now

i'm sick of it
everything

i
don't
want
to
cry
again

writing?
don't know yet
like i said
i don't want to cry again

maybe
but
i don't want to do it apathetically
because it won't change anything
maybe
i should just
sleep
it numbs the mind

maybe that's why i always have dreams where i'm running away
because sleep is like running away from my problems

ignore all of this

goodnight