my last letter to you
Dear you,
It's hard to believe how close we've become in the past few months, and even harder to believe how apart we've gotten in the past few days. It's impossible for me to imagine the hours of sleep I've lost thinking about you, the number of tears I've shed for you, and all of the times I've gotten my heartbroken from not understanding you.
Even now, as I'm listening to a song I once swore was written about you and I, I only hear something mediocre that used to be beautiful to me..it almost sounds like you.
Now, don't get me wrong, you weren't completely worthless. You taught me things. You made me believe things. I honestly believed for a while, that you were the only person I needed, and though you were far away, our love for each other would eventually break through the distance. Our "love"? You know, the one I never told you about. But I suppose that doesn't really matter anymore.
How could it matter? Honestly, if you admitted to me right now that you once felt that way for me, or still do and everything you've ever said to me was a lie, I know I would not take you back. Because, you see, I've done too much for you. When he shook my hand, he shook my world, and because of you, I denied it...until now. I always called you my best friend and best friends aren't supposed to be anything more.
So now, best friend, you've found a new girl, I've found a new boy. I'm happy for you, I honestly am. I'm glad to see that you are not a robot, and you can actually have feelings for someone and let them know, because you never proved that to me. If I was once the person I used to be I would be a jealous monster but..I'm not. So many new, exciting, and confusing things are happening to me, and if you are experiencing any of them, you should feel as lucky as I do right now.
If you even got this far, please don't act like you normally do. Don't think you can't talk to me because you're afraid of the truth. Because I am your friend, I just wanted you to know this. I want to be able to talk to you again. Please don't run away like you do.
I've never hated you. I loved you as much as you would let me. You were the most beautiful apathetic person I ever knew, and I really should be thanking you. By going through everything I went through I never would have known what being in love isn't like. You've given me hope..well, I'm not sure if you deserve all the credit for this, but, I've finally learned that it's okay to move on.
I finally think I'm over you...no, I know I'm over you, I've known it for a while now, I'm just letting you know. I should have written you this letter months ago..I just don't think I was strong enough.
Sincerely,
me
It's hard to believe how close we've become in the past few months, and even harder to believe how apart we've gotten in the past few days. It's impossible for me to imagine the hours of sleep I've lost thinking about you, the number of tears I've shed for you, and all of the times I've gotten my heartbroken from not understanding you.
Even now, as I'm listening to a song I once swore was written about you and I, I only hear something mediocre that used to be beautiful to me..it almost sounds like you.
Now, don't get me wrong, you weren't completely worthless. You taught me things. You made me believe things. I honestly believed for a while, that you were the only person I needed, and though you were far away, our love for each other would eventually break through the distance. Our "love"? You know, the one I never told you about. But I suppose that doesn't really matter anymore.
How could it matter? Honestly, if you admitted to me right now that you once felt that way for me, or still do and everything you've ever said to me was a lie, I know I would not take you back. Because, you see, I've done too much for you. When he shook my hand, he shook my world, and because of you, I denied it...until now. I always called you my best friend and best friends aren't supposed to be anything more.
So now, best friend, you've found a new girl, I've found a new boy. I'm happy for you, I honestly am. I'm glad to see that you are not a robot, and you can actually have feelings for someone and let them know, because you never proved that to me. If I was once the person I used to be I would be a jealous monster but..I'm not. So many new, exciting, and confusing things are happening to me, and if you are experiencing any of them, you should feel as lucky as I do right now.
If you even got this far, please don't act like you normally do. Don't think you can't talk to me because you're afraid of the truth. Because I am your friend, I just wanted you to know this. I want to be able to talk to you again. Please don't run away like you do.
I've never hated you. I loved you as much as you would let me. You were the most beautiful apathetic person I ever knew, and I really should be thanking you. By going through everything I went through I never would have known what being in love isn't like. You've given me hope..well, I'm not sure if you deserve all the credit for this, but, I've finally learned that it's okay to move on.
I finally think I'm over you...no, I know I'm over you, I've known it for a while now, I'm just letting you know. I should have written you this letter months ago..I just don't think I was strong enough.
Sincerely,
me