Get up, Get up, Come on, Come on, Let's go!
I don't even know what to say at this point. I'm just confused and feeling so many different things right now. I don't even know how to explain a damn thing that is going through my head. It feels good to really be single for once and not have to worry about a relationship. But at the same time there is still that part of me that wants to jump right into one. But I am fighting that urge. I need to figure out alot of things. What I want, I really just need to get to know ME. Me without WE. I've always been a part of a WE, to the point where it's hard to decipher what I really enjoy and like.
There is just so much that has been going on. There are two people who I like right now. I won't name either. Both of them are amazing people and both in completely and totally different ways. And it really makes me feel good about myself to know that both of these people feel the same way about me. And that is what makes staying single difficult for me. I always want to jump into a relationship with someone when I like them. But I'm not going to do that now. I just want to have fun, enjoy life. And not have the added stress of a relationship. And a big part of that is I am sick of hurting people and being hurt. I want to make sure the next relationship I get into is going to work. And no relationship will work with anyone until I figure out what I want.
Today really started out shitty, but now I've just got a silly grin on my face. I need to go to sleep, but it's so hard to sleep lately. My mind just does not want to stop. I close my eyes and I can't get rid of all these thoughts. I guess my life is really going pretty smoothly right now. I really do know some AMAZING people. And I hope everyone who has listened to me bitch and complain understands just how much they mean to me... :)
There is just so much that has been going on. There are two people who I like right now. I won't name either. Both of them are amazing people and both in completely and totally different ways. And it really makes me feel good about myself to know that both of these people feel the same way about me. And that is what makes staying single difficult for me. I always want to jump into a relationship with someone when I like them. But I'm not going to do that now. I just want to have fun, enjoy life. And not have the added stress of a relationship. And a big part of that is I am sick of hurting people and being hurt. I want to make sure the next relationship I get into is going to work. And no relationship will work with anyone until I figure out what I want.
Today really started out shitty, but now I've just got a silly grin on my face. I need to go to sleep, but it's so hard to sleep lately. My mind just does not want to stop. I close my eyes and I can't get rid of all these thoughts. I guess my life is really going pretty smoothly right now. I really do know some AMAZING people. And I hope everyone who has listened to me bitch and complain understands just how much they mean to me... :)