who really knows
My dad is at camp victory now over in iraq. He said today well i dont know if i can be there for the wedding.
Then he told my mom that some guy who is going to be a grandfather for the first time is going to get to go home in sep or oct. It depends on when the baby is born i guess. This guy wants to be there when the baby is born. I believe it is hard to determine when a baby will be born. When i was born my father wasnt even there he was out in the fields for training. Most grandparnents see the baby after its born. But that isnt even the issue. If this guy can go home durning what ever dates he wants too then i think my father should get to go home for my wedding. His excuse was he didnt know if he would make it cause its in may. I changed it to may cause he said yes he would be there. I changed it from april to may for him. What hurts is how he said this guy is going to get to go home for a specail event he is going to be a grandfather for the first time. What my wedding isnt specail enough? Your first child is getting married for the first and only time and you are supposed to walk me down the isle. It is the first time you get to walk a daughter down the isle next would be michelle many years later. But i guess my day isnt specail enough. It hurts just enough to make me cry but then i think about it and just stop crying and get sad. My uncle said he would walk me down the isle if my dad cant make it ... my mom said i know it isnt the same but at least he is a cool uncle. That he is and i love him and he said he would fill in as our father while my dad is gone, but it isnt the same and my wedding wont be the same. Then my mom said he wouldnt be in the pictures either...she was like so what cause she is pissed at him. That made me cry cause it hurt me just a little more. I feel like i have a small pointy knife that is stabing me in the side and it just gets a bit deeper each time i hear this subject.
Well then other wise im good.