do you ever feel like maybe youre just not loved enough? or by the right people?
and then you feel like a retched person for all the people who you dont love but they think you should.. and all the people youre making feel like they arent good enough because they love you but here you are needing more?
i like it better on the days when i feel like i couldnt possibly ask for anything more. last night was harsh. i need a radio in my car to drown out my thoughts of worthless people.. and/or robots.
I think we all have days like that. Days where you're sure everything would be fine, if only this one person (who doesn't love you the way you want or need to be loved) would come around and realize how fucking amazing you are. Days where you look in the mirror and think "What's wrong with me that I don't feel as much or as easily as other people seem to?"
The key, I think, is to take care of you. If you need to go out by yourself, or with someone who does care, you do that. If you need to lock yourself in your room, and watch cheezy chick flicks and cry like your heart is breaking over and over and over again, do that. If you need to eat ice cream until you throw up, then do that.
Bottom line - I understand the hell you're going through. & you already know this, but it will get better & easier. It will probably also, on some miserable day, be even harder. Life isn't always kind, and this world, not always generous.
Take care of yourself, and fuck what anyone else needs / wants / or expects from you.
& you're loved. Don't forget that; that ones important.
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or by the right people?
and then you feel like a retched person for all the people who you dont love but they think you should.. and all the people youre making feel like they arent good enough because they love you but here you are needing more?
i like it better on the days when i feel like i couldnt possibly ask for anything more. last night was harsh. i need a radio in my car to drown out my thoughts of worthless people.. and/or robots.
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The key, I think, is to take care of you. If you need to go out by yourself, or with someone who does care, you do that. If you need to lock yourself in your room, and watch cheezy chick flicks and cry like your heart is breaking over and over and over again, do that. If you need to eat ice cream until you throw up, then do that.
Bottom line - I understand the hell you're going through. & you already know this, but it will get better & easier. It will probably also, on some miserable day, be even harder. Life isn't always kind, and this world, not always generous.
Take care of yourself, and fuck what anyone else needs / wants / or expects from you.
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usually im ok.
actually... most of the time im fucking GRAND.
ill get back into the swing of things.
<3
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