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thinking about when people 'used to be cool' really is a waste of time.
and i have been wasting far too much time lately. i know far too many people who turned out to be so much less then what they started as. ive been making myself sick again. i have no idea what im doing, but something is so very wrong.
ive changed my hair 5 times this week. i hate everything i own. i have no desire to really spend time with anyone. everyone irritates me in some way or another. and my mind is slowly but surely filling with everything..seriously...everything from my past.
I AM NOT SATISFIED.
i need something better than this.
but what the fuck is it that i need better than??
and why am i so jealous of everyone else?
im going through one of my 'im tired of being me' phases. i keep trying to think of all the amazing things that happened to me, and the amazing people ive known.. and all the people that tried/still try to convince me im amazing.
i dont know.
maybe this will pass.
and i have been wasting far too much time lately. i know far too many people who turned out to be so much less then what they started as. ive been making myself sick again. i have no idea what im doing, but something is so very wrong.
ive changed my hair 5 times this week. i hate everything i own. i have no desire to really spend time with anyone. everyone irritates me in some way or another. and my mind is slowly but surely filling with everything..seriously...everything from my past.
I AM NOT SATISFIED.
i need something better than this.
but what the fuck is it that i need better than??
and why am i so jealous of everyone else?
im going through one of my 'im tired of being me' phases. i keep trying to think of all the amazing things that happened to me, and the amazing people ive known.. and all the people that tried/still try to convince me im amazing.
i dont know.
maybe this will pass.