Changing my path in life...
...haha, that makes it sound much more terrible...but it isn't bad at all.
I changed majors, (or rather, I'm in the process of changing majors.) I talked to some of my teachers today and let them know and told them some of my opinions (very politely, but in a very blunt manner) on their teaching styles and exactly why I was quitting the program. There are so many things going on all at once that I can't even describe that I've kept bottled up all semester, just hoping everything would fix itself and things would magically be okay...but that just doesn't happen. I'll hit some key points:
- the department chair fucks students in exchange for good grades
- the professors admittedly grade on personal bias and "like to play mind games with the students" (I cannot begin to explain all of the politics and bullshit I've dealt with this year)
- all of my friends suddenly won't talk to me because I refuse to shun another girl in the class for no reason
- I don't want to work for rich people and along-side money-hungry bitches who'll step on anyone to advance
- this just isn't what I want to do with a career
I feel so amazing and free and liberated. All thru the spring semester I just haven't been myself. I've been so short-tempered and unhappy all the time. Which was a big shock since I'm use to being such a happy-go-lucky-huggy-hippy-kid!!
So what is she going to do with herself....?
I want to teach - specifically high school English - and I think I always have. Every little "I wanna be this" tanget that I went on, always came back to, "I want to be a teacher." *sigh* I am so happy, I've been dancing around all day.
***random ending point*** I hate when people make their LJs FrIeNdS OnLy...because I like to lurk. Goddammit I'm not going to do anything to anyone, I just like to know how people that I wouldn't really want to talk to, but still think about are doing. So, yeah, get off it and make your journal public. Unless you have something to hide!!! *evil eye* Muhahaha!
I changed majors, (or rather, I'm in the process of changing majors.) I talked to some of my teachers today and let them know and told them some of my opinions (very politely, but in a very blunt manner) on their teaching styles and exactly why I was quitting the program. There are so many things going on all at once that I can't even describe that I've kept bottled up all semester, just hoping everything would fix itself and things would magically be okay...but that just doesn't happen. I'll hit some key points:
- the department chair fucks students in exchange for good grades
- the professors admittedly grade on personal bias and "like to play mind games with the students" (I cannot begin to explain all of the politics and bullshit I've dealt with this year)
- all of my friends suddenly won't talk to me because I refuse to shun another girl in the class for no reason
- I don't want to work for rich people and along-side money-hungry bitches who'll step on anyone to advance
- this just isn't what I want to do with a career
I feel so amazing and free and liberated. All thru the spring semester I just haven't been myself. I've been so short-tempered and unhappy all the time. Which was a big shock since I'm use to being such a happy-go-lucky-huggy-hippy-kid!!
So what is she going to do with herself....?
I want to teach - specifically high school English - and I think I always have. Every little "I wanna be this" tanget that I went on, always came back to, "I want to be a teacher." *sigh* I am so happy, I've been dancing around all day.
***random ending point*** I hate when people make their LJs FrIeNdS OnLy...because I like to lurk. Goddammit I'm not going to do anything to anyone, I just like to know how people that I wouldn't really want to talk to, but still think about are doing. So, yeah, get off it and make your journal public. Unless you have something to hide!!! *evil eye* Muhahaha!