the morning after

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mere indifference
or was it repression?

negative feedback
feelings of judgment

internalization
self-doubt and disgust

anxiety

needles in my head
the heat rises

it is back
it is there

it is inspiration
it is growth

it is what I sought
it is what does me in

i never learn
i never change

all i want is to hurt myself
all I want if to be free

free from this cycle
free from my desires

desire for doom