The Morning After with only 3 hours Sleep
Can't sleep. Clubbing = HOT!!! :) CAsper and I danced pretty much the whole time and it was so frucking sexual and I don't know what to think. I shouldn't think. Thinking is bad. AWHWHHWWWWWAHHHHHH. Dame it, I love that kid. Lately I have been talking to this other kid Michael online, a friend of Tiffs who visited this fall who I had a crush on at the time but nothing ever became of. I enjoy talking to him and having a crush is nice but it is NOTHING compared to how I feel for Casper. It sucks. I just want my little boy to be mine. I want to be able to hold his hand forver. I want to be able to ride him in bed, not just on the dance floor. I want him to be mine forever. I want to walk through life with him. The frustrating part is that we are each others most important person. We act like we are dating but we aren't. We can't. And we won't. Because he doesn't like me that way. He is dumb. I don't know what to think of this.