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i think that sometimes its hard to do things that you want to do. im mad at myself but i always have to act a certain way when i know..i know that i feel another way. i guess ive trained myself to not allow myself to feel how i want to feel and actually show it. i always have some kind of guard up. im too stubborn and i need to let it go. at least im realizing my mistakes but now its time to act upon them.