Reesa
she died for no good reason. no.good.fucking.reason.
and i cant stress enough to you that if i had BEEN THERE, it simply WOULDNT have happened.
do you have any idea how guilty i feel? that i got to live, that i said no that night, that i'm still fucking here. seeing her in the halls everywhere. i just want to lie down in it all and hoard every last bit of her memory.
so dont give me your "god is giving you a second chance" bullshit. i was doing fine. just.fucking.fine.
i dont need you preaching to me, saying that there is a reason she's dead and i'm not because there was no reason for her to die.
i just want to curl up and erase everything.
and i cant stress enough to you that if i had BEEN THERE, it simply WOULDNT have happened.
do you have any idea how guilty i feel? that i got to live, that i said no that night, that i'm still fucking here. seeing her in the halls everywhere. i just want to lie down in it all and hoard every last bit of her memory.
so dont give me your "god is giving you a second chance" bullshit. i was doing fine. just.fucking.fine.
i dont need you preaching to me, saying that there is a reason she's dead and i'm not because there was no reason for her to die.
i just want to curl up and erase everything.