i want to wake up where you are
i remember you. you were charming. amazingly perceptive. thoughtful and selfless. you never made anyone mad, because you were just you. and you loved being you. then something changed. it seems like somewhere along the line, you lost that. you are a wonderful actor, maybe you were just acting the part, or maybe you're acting now. you're the only one that knows. you're cynical now. bitter. you hold grudges. you can still make me laugh, im sure,but its not the same. your witty sense of humor has turned dry. i just wish you would bring the old you back. sometimes people change and they forget to tell me. i hate that.
yesterday, people in general are having a boring day. they just didnt interest me. or maybe i was boring. either way, yesterday just did not interest me. thankfully, i have an amazing best friend and when we're feeling uninspired and under the weather, what do we do? well it actually differs every time. but last night we went to safeway. and ate cake. actually, it was parfait. and sang. very loud. and then had a techno party. (because i am thrilled to say, 92.7 'the beat' is back, bitches.) and then gina beat me up. and it was awesome.
i feel like everything is halfway in my life. im a walking sunroof, when i should really be like Milton. a convertible. we should all be more like Milton. i think mikey is still halfway mad at me. i think arielle is still halfway sad. nevermind my halfway relationships. i cant commit to anything anyways. i have two PART time jobs (i'm counting the fact that i get paid to empty the dishwasher a job). yesterday i went to HALF my classes.
This is different. But while we're on the topic, stop the theoretical would i choose a or b questions because they cause me to have severe anxiety attacks. plus, i always choose c. especially if it means a pity party with diane...uhh
Greg: Dharma, it's starting to rain....you're not going to sleep in the rain are you?
Dharma: No, silly. You don't sleep in the rain! You make love in the rain!
Greg: What if it starts to lightening?
Dharma: Then you can be on top!
I've been so many places in my life and time
I've sung a lot of songs I've made some bad rhyme
I've acted out my love in stages
With ten thousand people watching
But we're alone now and I'm singing this song for you
awww. ok. please shut me up. now.